Ok...we are only a few weeks away from the competition. And today I just couldn't take it anymore! I took my Tren and Winny and trashed the shit! I just couldn't take it anymore!
My wife saw me this morning taking all my gear and just throwing it into the trash with such anger and hatred. She asked...." WTF are you doing?! " I told her that I hate this stuff. She then said..." but you look fucking awesome! You look ripped and vacular! What about your competition? No lie! I told her... fuck that shit! The hell I'm going through isn't worth a competition where if I win...I don't win jack shit!
I feel like shit on it! I can't sleep! Too much anxiety, insomnia and nightsweats. I feel no love towards anybody. Too much anger and hatred. And all for no reason at all! This stuff is ruining me! I get angry when I'm driving. I yell at the wife. My beautiful lovely wife and all for no reason. Do you guys think that is a nice thing to do? Do you? I don't!
I'm not even playing with my daughters. I ignore the damn dog. I feel fucking lethargic as shit! I have no appetite! I'm not happy. And flat out...I'm just being a total dick to everybody. And oh yeah! I lost desire for sex. NOTHING IN THIS WORLD IS WORTH LOSING THE DESIRE FOR SEX!!!
God intended humans to eat, sleep and fuck. So let me do it and enjoy it! And this Tren shit has totally taken away all pleasures of my life!
I got a couple of real estate investments that i'm trying to sell. And I can't sell them because I myself get a fucking nasty attitude with the potential buyer either over the phone or in person. Just the other day someone called me and starts talking to me in spanish ( this is Miami where am at ). But I myself DO NOT like to talk spanish. So I play it dumb as if I don't know what the fuck they are saying. So I asked the lady on the phone....do you speak english? She said...Oh! I''m sorry, I though you spoke spanish. And I said...." this is a english speaking country isn't it? This is the U.S. isn't it?! The fucking bitch cursed me out and hung up!
And then some stupid bitch makes an appointment to see the house. I go over to show the house and the bitch starts making me the dumbest offer on the house. To the point that I told her...." don't fucking insult my intelligence like that! GET THE FUCK OUT!!!! Yes folks! That is the dickhead that I have become from using a drug that is supposed to make you look oh soooooo good. But make you a total asshole. And not to mention....DESTROY YOUR SEX DRIVE! And all for what? Psssst! I have no fucking idea!
Bottom line with all said and done. I'm done taking the stuff to make you look all freaky. As of today I'm taking high doses of Test Cyp. I need estrogen in my body. I don't care if I look a little bloated. I need to feel strong, happy, energetic, positive. And most importantly...I also need to feel love towards others. And lets not forget the only reason why we are all here. And that is SEX!!!!
So Satch....high doses of Test Cyp for me from now on. I'll still be there come July 17. I don't really give a shit who wins. Who looks better. I need to feel better. And treat others kind. I'm out! PEACE!!!!!
My wife saw me this morning taking all my gear and just throwing it into the trash with such anger and hatred. She asked...." WTF are you doing?! " I told her that I hate this stuff. She then said..." but you look fucking awesome! You look ripped and vacular! What about your competition? No lie! I told her... fuck that shit! The hell I'm going through isn't worth a competition where if I win...I don't win jack shit!
I feel like shit on it! I can't sleep! Too much anxiety, insomnia and nightsweats. I feel no love towards anybody. Too much anger and hatred. And all for no reason at all! This stuff is ruining me! I get angry when I'm driving. I yell at the wife. My beautiful lovely wife and all for no reason. Do you guys think that is a nice thing to do? Do you? I don't!
I'm not even playing with my daughters. I ignore the damn dog. I feel fucking lethargic as shit! I have no appetite! I'm not happy. And flat out...I'm just being a total dick to everybody. And oh yeah! I lost desire for sex. NOTHING IN THIS WORLD IS WORTH LOSING THE DESIRE FOR SEX!!!
God intended humans to eat, sleep and fuck. So let me do it and enjoy it! And this Tren shit has totally taken away all pleasures of my life!
I got a couple of real estate investments that i'm trying to sell. And I can't sell them because I myself get a fucking nasty attitude with the potential buyer either over the phone or in person. Just the other day someone called me and starts talking to me in spanish ( this is Miami where am at ). But I myself DO NOT like to talk spanish. So I play it dumb as if I don't know what the fuck they are saying. So I asked the lady on the phone....do you speak english? She said...Oh! I''m sorry, I though you spoke spanish. And I said...." this is a english speaking country isn't it? This is the U.S. isn't it?! The fucking bitch cursed me out and hung up!
And then some stupid bitch makes an appointment to see the house. I go over to show the house and the bitch starts making me the dumbest offer on the house. To the point that I told her...." don't fucking insult my intelligence like that! GET THE FUCK OUT!!!! Yes folks! That is the dickhead that I have become from using a drug that is supposed to make you look oh soooooo good. But make you a total asshole. And not to mention....DESTROY YOUR SEX DRIVE! And all for what? Psssst! I have no fucking idea!
Bottom line with all said and done. I'm done taking the stuff to make you look all freaky. As of today I'm taking high doses of Test Cyp. I need estrogen in my body. I don't care if I look a little bloated. I need to feel strong, happy, energetic, positive. And most importantly...I also need to feel love towards others. And lets not forget the only reason why we are all here. And that is SEX!!!!
So Satch....high doses of Test Cyp for me from now on. I'll still be there come July 17. I don't really give a shit who wins. Who looks better. I need to feel better. And treat others kind. I'm out! PEACE!!!!!