KillahBee said:
You are stable.
I have yet to make posts ad nauseum about reprehensible behavior that "I am sorry" for... but I was just, you know, fucking with other human beings because, well, I wanted to know what it felt like to belittle and degrade so that I could feel better about myself somehow.
I would rather be my brand of stable, than yours, darlin.
The trouble I have sleeping at night is because of the nightmares that plague me from childhood - long long years of awfull abuse from the hands of those that I was supposed to have been able to trust most to total strangers, that continued to the night that my ex beat me to the ground. THAT NIGHT I SAID - NO MORE.
Still took me a few years to learn how to make better choices as to whom I can trust and whom I should call friend... Guilty as charged.
But I can honestly say that I would rather lose sleep because of MY REALITY than to have trouble from a guilt-ridden consciense for how I took advantage of and maliciously hurt other human beings... whether that being was weak or not as some form of "social experiment" (as if I buy THAT one).