It's really weird. I never did aas between 1993 and 2001. In 1994, I was all natural cycling Met-Rx and creatine. First time I cycled creatine my squat jumped from 315 x 10 to 315 x 15. One time in law school, after getting lean as hell in the Summer, I rebounded with creatine and high calories and squatted 365 x 9. Ppl in the gym thought I was cycling for sure. One guy asked me if I played ball. Then you get a full time job and its a chore to maintain your routine but luckily I did for the last 12 years. In 2001 I discover MAS -- Mexican AS -- and get a bottle of decanandrolen (Denkall). And it's on. I'm looking back at my training log and even tho I could squat 315 x 10 natural and 315 x 15 (in 1994) and 365 x 9 (in 1996) on creatine, I'm looking back at my training log and in October 2004 I was only squatting 315 x 6-8 and I did a cycle of Syrus NPP only and in November 7, '04 I squatted 335 x 6, then Nov 24 '04 375 x 6, Dec 01 '04 395 x 5, Dec 09 '04 405 x 6, Dec 17 '04 405 x 6, Dec 27 '04 405 x 7, and Jan 4, '05 405 x 8. Even post cycle I told myself I would keep up the same weight and as late as May 09 '05 I got 405 x 6 and May 16 '05 405 x 5. June 15 '05 385 x 6. I know my npp cycle did not last past Feb, early Mar 05. I thik Feb it ended but it's been a while. Then in Aug '05 I did a strict cutter. Maintained 365 x 6 while I got lean as hell. 200mg/week of QV deca and 5 iu/day of Jintropin. That was it. Here I am in March 06 (I stayed on 6 months 200mg deca, followed by 100mg tren hex, followed by 50mg/day of var.)
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In April '06, I made the mistake of quitting squats and substituting with leg presses for a few months. Now I'm back to 315 x 6-8. And every rep I hear "CLICK-CLICK" as the bone in my left hip cracks against my hip socket (endstage osteoarthritis). I am living on borrowed time, bros. Fighting off father time, trying to postpone a hip replacement as long as possible. It's starting to seem like a good idea to just have the surgery. But just picture that 12" fucking scar up the side of my hip! Fuck!
I dunno. Even if I do a cycle, I dont remember my hip ever making this kind of noise or bothering me so much. If my log is any indication of the future, I can look forward to squatting 405 x 8 again or maybe even more, but at what cost? I guess I might have to go to a sports orthopedic surgeon to find out whats the worst that could happen to ignore the clicking and keep piling on more weight. Let this be a warning bros. Look at Arnold next to the pool after his heart surgery. Eventually we have to ween ourselves off this fairy tale and start living like normal, average people. Or find a happy middle. Fuck, if I could just get back to where I was in 1999 (6 years since my last aas run and 2 years before my next), 185 lbs, benching 205 x 11, squatting 315 x 10, and 14 - 15 wide grip pull ups (18 strict wide grip pull-ups was my best in 1995 natural for 3 years), striations and veins in my legs, sexy as hell (if I do say so myself)
Fuck, these steroids are not worth it. They are a great short cut for a sloppy lifestyle. But if you get your diet in check and stay away from booze, you can stay strong (relatively speaking) and lean without the juice.
Sorry to rant bros. It's therapy for myself. I am trying to work this out in my mind as I write.
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