I know I'm probably going to get flamed for this, but I think you are a prime candidate for a light cycle of Ox or Winny. (Not that I know anything about such evilness) If you are coming off of a eating disorder, I'll bet your muscle mass is near nothing. Reading your postings, you seem quite stable and up-beat, but I know that you struggle with what you see in the mirror. You brain doesn't see what we see. Some steady gains and positive changes in you body would help to encourage you.
Keep coming around and keep posting those sexy pics. We sex-hounds will always give you a word of encouragement, crude sometimes, but still encouraging. I think you look very sexy. What really matters is what you think.
Be good to yourself.