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I gotta cook a little somethin before I go to bed......so I'll check back a little bit later to see if anyon replied to this.......I got a question for y'all....mainly for the guys.
What do you guys want out of life? I mean "really" "really" "really" want.......serious answers please, I'm serious.....save the "I want to drown in a pool of vagina's" for another thread. And get personal, like about your situation and where you are.
Me, I'm yet again at a point in my life where I cannot see my future, like at all. It's up in the air right now where I'm going to be and what I'm going to be doing in a year. It's been like this for the last couple years too. Since I got out of OH, which I think was a good thing.......and gotten out to see the rest of the world........I've just been kind of fumbling around. I made the right choice in divorcing myself from the "blueprint" that was my upbringing. I don't have a single friend, save one, back home that I can look and go "he's happy". All of them did what they were supposed to, found their little corner of the world........and now just look to settle in. Year by year I see the fire in them dieing out. Not that I think we were great fucking philosophers in high school.......but there was a certain energy that's been lost. And I'm not talking about that sophomoric let's go tackle snowmen drunk bullshit, cause we still do that from time to time..........hey, old habits die hard......it sucks though when you hit one that's been doused with water and turned into an ice statue. Anyway........these gusy have a much better idea of what they're going to be doing in a year from now, even 5 years from now. But they don't seem to be happy. They "play" happy.......but when you pretty much grew up with a bunch of guys.......you know. You can see it in their eyes......and you can see the secularity of thought closing in on them year by year. They're just not "free" anymore......if that makes sense.
So that brings me to "what do I want" out of life. I have no fucking clue anymore. I've been through a relationship where I pretty much planned on being with that person for the rest of my life........that was the last time I "thought" I knew what the fuck I was doing in this world. I don't want to make it sound like a woman would make everything alright.......nobody can fix you, and it's not fair to expect them to. But I miss it........I really fucking do. I lived in California for two years and worked in the naughty night club business and I did meet alot of really cool people.........lotta peeps one would consider "free-er" than most. I had my fun times, but they were fleeting......they were nothing, they were gone the next day. I dunno........I just don't know what the deal is anymore, what we're supposed to be striving for. How do you guys do it that just go from one "fun" to another? How does it "do it" for you? It just get's depressing how "unpersonal" everything has become.......there's no fire anymore. Ah well, if nothing I said makes sense, fuckit.......I gotta go eat,
What do you guys want out of life? I mean "really" "really" "really" want.......serious answers please, I'm serious.....save the "I want to drown in a pool of vagina's" for another thread. And get personal, like about your situation and where you are.
Me, I'm yet again at a point in my life where I cannot see my future, like at all. It's up in the air right now where I'm going to be and what I'm going to be doing in a year. It's been like this for the last couple years too. Since I got out of OH, which I think was a good thing.......and gotten out to see the rest of the world........I've just been kind of fumbling around. I made the right choice in divorcing myself from the "blueprint" that was my upbringing. I don't have a single friend, save one, back home that I can look and go "he's happy". All of them did what they were supposed to, found their little corner of the world........and now just look to settle in. Year by year I see the fire in them dieing out. Not that I think we were great fucking philosophers in high school.......but there was a certain energy that's been lost. And I'm not talking about that sophomoric let's go tackle snowmen drunk bullshit, cause we still do that from time to time..........hey, old habits die hard......it sucks though when you hit one that's been doused with water and turned into an ice statue. Anyway........these gusy have a much better idea of what they're going to be doing in a year from now, even 5 years from now. But they don't seem to be happy. They "play" happy.......but when you pretty much grew up with a bunch of guys.......you know. You can see it in their eyes......and you can see the secularity of thought closing in on them year by year. They're just not "free" anymore......if that makes sense.
So that brings me to "what do I want" out of life. I have no fucking clue anymore. I've been through a relationship where I pretty much planned on being with that person for the rest of my life........that was the last time I "thought" I knew what the fuck I was doing in this world. I don't want to make it sound like a woman would make everything alright.......nobody can fix you, and it's not fair to expect them to. But I miss it........I really fucking do. I lived in California for two years and worked in the naughty night club business and I did meet alot of really cool people.........lotta peeps one would consider "free-er" than most. I had my fun times, but they were fleeting......they were nothing, they were gone the next day. I dunno........I just don't know what the deal is anymore, what we're supposed to be striving for. How do you guys do it that just go from one "fun" to another? How does it "do it" for you? It just get's depressing how "unpersonal" everything has become.......there's no fire anymore. Ah well, if nothing I said makes sense, fuckit.......I gotta go eat,
