yeah bro, I still fight the addiction everyday. (I have been clean for 4 months)
The truth is xanax and valium are one of the most addictive drugs out there, and if you dont stop it fast you might never be able to quit.
I was addicted to them for about 4 years and when I didnt have them I went crazy. When I came off of them I had withdrawl like symptoms for about 1-2 months and it was horrible.
Bottom line, barbituates have no place in BB at all, so you better quit while you can, bro.
It sucks at first but you'll thank me later.
Good luck bro