nice post nimrod. I too had the same problems and ended up in jail. In december it will be 4 years clean and sober. Its cool you found somthing to change your life. I use AA and work hard at it. Spirituality is huge for me too although im not a religous person at all. It can be hard taking illegal drugs at times even though they aren't mind altering recreational. I defenitly dont wanna go back to the way i was so i must be careful. I beilieve ill always be a drug addict and alcoholic, its just a matter of if i choose to be an active one or a recovering one.