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Meantime1
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I SHARE YOUR PAIN, i too never had one, when i was growing up, my dad was never there and when he was, he brought his GF's to the house, while my step mum was there, and everyday my dad and my step mum would fight about his ways and scream at each other, when she was not fighting with him, she was taken it out on me and my sister, the things is i am a basted child, so my sister and i reminded her of the infidelities he did to her, and her children who are older than me, my step sibling would often beat and pick on us.
It really fucked me up when i was growing up, my 1st ever relationship was very abusive physically and mentally and not until my friend came to see me with a broken nose and a cracked forehead, did he scream and said Kenny, what are u doing, and i said i dont know i just seem to be going round in circles, hurting the ones i love, not been faithful, fighting every night.
and you know what he said to me, he said all this is from my parents, ( After all when i was growing up, i had no references to refer back to, except the abusive relationships my parents had with each other) so to me this was normal and how my step mum never walked away and she allowed him to beat her and shit
So when that was happening to me in my own life with my ex bf, i too never walked away and because he was allot older and stronger than me i stayed, u have to remember i was only 20 and it was my 1st ever relationship.
My friend then said in his own household his parents never fought with each other, not once raised their voice with each other and always dealt with situations as an adult. when he said that it opened something inside my heart and that very next wkd when my ex with to Paris, with someone else, i packed my bags and left, stayed in a bed set and never looked back again, I only took what was mine and did not trash the house or take his own things, for i believed all i really needed was me and i knew god would make sure i was ok.
It really fucked me up when i was growing up, my 1st ever relationship was very abusive physically and mentally and not until my friend came to see me with a broken nose and a cracked forehead, did he scream and said Kenny, what are u doing, and i said i dont know i just seem to be going round in circles, hurting the ones i love, not been faithful, fighting every night.
and you know what he said to me, he said all this is from my parents, ( After all when i was growing up, i had no references to refer back to, except the abusive relationships my parents had with each other) so to me this was normal and how my step mum never walked away and she allowed him to beat her and shit
So when that was happening to me in my own life with my ex bf, i too never walked away and because he was allot older and stronger than me i stayed, u have to remember i was only 20 and it was my 1st ever relationship.
My friend then said in his own household his parents never fought with each other, not once raised their voice with each other and always dealt with situations as an adult. when he said that it opened something inside my heart and that very next wkd when my ex with to Paris, with someone else, i packed my bags and left, stayed in a bed set and never looked back again, I only took what was mine and did not trash the house or take his own things, for i believed all i really needed was me and i knew god would make sure i was ok.
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bkc
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BonerBoy said:
That sucks bro... I have a dad but not really... He was there for me, I think... as a child but not so sure about now... Anyway sorry to hear that man. Not to preach but the bible speaks of how God is Father to the fatherless, Mother to the motherless etc... if we will allow Him to be...
Lumberg
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My dad was an alcoholic, kinda of immature man. he loved me but wasn't what I'd call a strong male influence in my life, the kind every kid needs. I was always a smart, non-athletic kid in school. that's mostly why I work out now, and while I will never be as strong as a lot of the people on here (I'm just not built to be), I have a lot more self-confidence as a result, it's a start.
