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KillahBee

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I had an MRI today. Usually my tactic to get thru the MRU without freaking out (I only start getting antsy when I begin to concentrate on breathing) is to just talk to myself in my head. I typically tell stories to myself, usually recounting past experiences of mine. The 3 topics I can remember from today's session (which was themed to Hendrix's "The Ultimate Experience" which actually made the process enjoyable):

- The ULTIMATE cockblock: Some chick I used to work with had a crush on me, so we ended up going out one random night. I convinced her to leave her car at the bar, that I would drive her home. This girl was really feeling me (we ended up dating for a few months) and I was into her - shit, we held hands the first night we hung out :rainbow: . ANyway, we are about 1/4 mile from her crib, so I'm getting my finger-banging routine all prepped in my mind when her phone rings. Lo and behold it is her BF....crying. Dude was going into the NFL draft the next month and was just freaking out about it.

- Meditating: It's really not about some crazy spiritual awakening where angels and Gods speak to you and you levitate and shit (although it can be). It's jsut about slowing things down, concentrating and thinking. If everyone just learned to re-pattern their behaviors to do this every second of every day life would be much easier.

- The word "recognize": If you break it down, it's "re" and "cognize". If you really get into the hippy stuff and truly believe that everything in the universe is connected and one and the same, then you realize that "recognizing" someone or something isn't as simple as "I saw/experienced that once and kind of remember it", it's realizing a part of you that was stuck in your subconscious.





Fuck, that girl had a GREAT vagina.
 
SublimeZM said:
damn man i hate people
nah man, it's part of growing up. she was young, sheltered and thought she was in love. and wasn't strong enough to hold back her feelings in the name of "doing right".

hopefully she'll learn from the whole debacle.
 
KillahBee said:
nah man, it's part of growing up. she was young, sheltered and thought she was in love. and wasn't strong enough to hold back her feelings in the name of "doing right".

hopefully she'll learn from the whole debacle.
thought she was in love with you?

why didnt she just dump him
 
SublimeZM said:
thought she was in love with you?

why didnt she just dump him


she was in love with me.

but she was confused, immature, inexperienced, female, etc. like I said, we did not label it and didn't want to, so there was not much of a need to end it with him (all moral zealot bullshit aside). as I understood it, they were in that relationship situation where both were just waiting for the other to end it anyway.

I didn't get involved on that part of it - didn't need to
 
KillahBee said:
she was in love with me.

but she was confused, immature, inexperienced, female, etc. like I said, we did not label it and didn't want to, so there was not much of a need to end it with him (all moral zealot bullshit aside). as I understood it, they were in that relationship situation where both were just waiting for the other to end it anyway.

I didn't get involved on that part of it - didn't need to
according to her
 
SublimeZM said:
what a bitch man
yeah, I guess. but I blame him for being a retard who doesn't know how to keep tabs on his woman. shit, she wouldn't answer the phone all night when she was at my place, which was pretty much every single night. he shoulda known she was creepin.

from her perspective though, I don't think he treated her well. then she meets this alright dude who treats her well and is a lot more stable and mature than her BF and who gives her the bragiole much better. how could she pass that up?
 
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