Will I continue down the path of self destruction tonight?

[Austin316]

Hmmmm, I wonder... Of course all my problems led me to drinking last night... Which when done on anti depressants is not so good an idea. Anyways I only was going to have one drink.. but with each drink, my pain got less.. before I know it, Im drunk and having a good time.. got to the salsa dancing club with my frat and a sorority, was goofing around, flirting, etc when my world came crashing down from my over consumption.... Dizziness doesn't describe it... I would go to take a step forward or back, and it would turn into a stumble until I ran into something to stop my momentum... they had these makeout rooms at this place, I passed out on one of the couches, the guys kept trying to move me saying I had to sit down, but I couldn't move and was out for about 30 minutes, then the bouncer came, and he picked me up and told me he had to kick me out, I couldn't walk though without falling, my friends said I looked like I was going to die, he had to carry me though pretty much, I could move my feet, but not keep myself up, so he and someone else ( a friend) held me up and guided me to the fron where I sat down and he went and got me some water and cofee..a cop showed up, and walked in the door
my friend shoved his cell in my hand and said pretend your talking... did and the cop walked by(Im 19) the bouncer then came out and said he didn't want me in trouble, so go outside,
so I did, tried walking to the alley, but puked all over the side walk and the building on my way to the alley where I had to go hide from the cop....then I got to the alley and threw up for 5 minutes, which of course is always fun....finally when I was done, they called a cab and dragged me into it..one of the guys left with me.. brought me back to the frat house. gave me water and just watched me for an hour till I was a lil beter..Then I passed out for 2 hours on the couch.. woke up... walked around and drank water for another 90 minutes.. came home and that was my night...

Tonight I am going to a mardi gras party, guys get beads at the door lol...... I have no intentions of drinking a lot, but I still feel shitty, adn I now for the time being, alchohol will help.. We will only have to see..Hopefully I don't wake up in some random girls bedroom lol if I do fuck up again

 

[Austin316]

I realized how stupid I was, used it as a wake up call, and plan on not repeating this again..Ive gotta grow up and deal

 

[smallmovesal]

word. i learned the hard way...

 

[polarpixie]

Austin, since you're smart enough to ask yourself that question, I think (hope) you'd stop yourself before you went down that path again. Just remember how bad you felt that night, is it really worth it? I don't think so....

 

[Test boy]

Oh to be young again. Nothing like sleeping in and on your vomit.