Self-medicating w/ hormones -- people don't realize just how fundamental our hormones & personal body chemistry is to who we are / how we think / how we act / how we feel about ourselves. I've been single when I've done competition prep so I've never been a miserable bitch to anyone directly in my house - however my parents were the target of several long distance calls during my first prep experience 6 1/2 yrs ago to the point that I STILL can't talk to them about diet. I didn't even tell them I did a show last summer until 3 days AFTER the show was over. THAT"S how much it affects how you interact w/ other people -- my parents who love me unconditionally and are 1500 miles away couldn't stand to be around me.
Here's another example --
http://www.elitefitness.com/forum/showthread.php?t=526017 -- just to let you know-- Quad is one of the sweetest, most personally aware person I know and here he is telling you how it is.
So don't let yourself get too caught up in how the AAS is making you feel - it gives you that feeling of well-being and power, health & strength. What good is a cocky attitude if it costs you the person who knows & loves you the most?
That's where you sort of have half the battle already won in that your wife is aware of the stuff and you at least arent' sneaking around her back. But seems now something has changed and she wants things back to 'normal'. Or maybe she feels like her relationship w/ you is threatened by your change in attitude and she needs you to continue acknowledging her place in your life as noted above. Whatever it is, the whole discussion of 'what AAS does to you' is not so much an issue so you need to be very open & honest and discuss it -- if she can voice what specifically it is that changed or whatever.
And like I said before - if you've been ON for 9 months, has that been a straight 9 months where a lot of your life has been centering around your looks, the size of your muscles, your training, how cocky you feel, etc. -- that's a long time for someone else to support your excitement in your new lifestyle -- maybe she is tired of the topic, maybe it is cutting into HER lifestyle, maybe she's tired of other people's comments about you or their attention to you or whatever. Her feelings are legitimate whatever they are so they should be listend to and acknowledged and considered.
And for you -- generally you can't stay on AAS 'all the time' -- just like contest prep - it should go in cycles -- you are on, you get big, you feel that euphoria of life, etc., then you have to come down as well and let your natural test production run for a while. However you feel now, tone down the desire to be like that 'all the time' and look at it as a phase in your fitness lifestyle that has its time and results, and then you come off, let your system recover, accept that you aren't always going to feel like Superman, learn to adjust down and then back up if you cycle again. But keep an even keel to it all for you and for her.
Anyway -- also wanted to let you invite your wife to the women's board if she has questions or wants her own focus on 'fitness', etc. instead of all you you you you you