viewing someone as an object, even labeling them as a masturbation tool to get around cheating isn't really the best way to view another human being ceo! shame on you!

Just kidding about the shame on you..no judging I know what you mean lol
in all srs tho you might as well just call it cheating. The mental gymnastics you have going there seems like its a little more dangerous than just admitting you're cheating, she's cheating..whatever. Guilt is a good thing. You can still do it but if you gotta lie about it to not hurt someone else at least don't lie to yourself.