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She was NOT the one for you. You already know that, but it takes a while for the heart to catch up with the head sometimes. She was not good to you and you admit that you were not good to her. If you thought that you were going to marry her someday, it's better that you find out now rather than later that this was not going to work. I know about this. So after you get the anger out, your experience will make you a wiser and better man if you allow it. It's painful to give so much of yourself to someone and then they not only reject you, but disrespect you too. I can't answer why - why do people abuse each other? Why do we say things we really don't mean? I often don't understand. All I know is that it hurts.
This has allowed you to see what you don't want in a woman (big understatement) and you will be able to recognize the warning signs much more quickly when you do decide to be involved with someone again. Your life is much bigger than this and the whole world is open to you! You're going to mature and meet other people. You're going to learn so much more, have so many experiences that will make your life fulfilled. So the pain will fade and the bitterness will pass. At least that is how it has been with me and I continue to have faith in men - and women.
I wrote too much! I always do that.
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