Waiting for a star to fall.....

[Bikini Mod]

and carry your heart into my arms,
that's were you belong, in my arms baby, yeah.....

Can you see me smiling now?

Close your eyes and let your mind wander....

It's hot outside and it's late.... we've both traveled so long and nearly missed each other yet again. Were we EVER MEANT TO MEET?.... or where the gods laughing as they tantalized us with promises of what COULD be?

Finally, I'm standing before you....

White straw hat w/flowers, hair is wild.... out of control, much like my soul - yearning to be free yet still "just so", white crochetted halter, long white - just tight enough skirt; revealing the silhouette of my body, yet still demure enough to be considered proper... a total condraction in terms so much like the woman underneath. Does her beauty go deeper than the surface?.... A silly question. As we became so close as ONLY FRIENDS CAN - FRIENDS PURE AND SIMPLE.

Nervous pause.... does she find me attractive? Is she as mesmerized by my presence? Will she return my affection?.... or will we remain "just friends".

Then came the hug that seemed to go on forever......

The rest of the evening was spent with her wondering, "When is he going to kiss me?" "Why doesn't he kiss me?" "Why won't he try to touch me?" "Doesn't he KNOW?........"

Now open your eyes my dearest - open them wide and see all that is before you.

 

[naturally anabolic]

still have your avatar i see whats new 'kinimom?

 

[Shrebly]

SHOW US YOUR TITS


I had to get that out of the way.... check your email in a few....

 

[smallmovesal]

while you're at it show us your ass... i have an opening to moderate another ass and you're on the short list

 

[HighIntensity]

A true romatic at heart, I love your stuff...makes mondays a little less shocking

good work

 

[Bikini Mod]

Thank you Hi....

But makes it truly wonderful is that it is no work of fiction... it is no dream....

The dream is only just now beginning... slowly, effortlessly I slip into the state of bliss. Am I awake? Am I asleep? I am searching for the compliment... the man that can help me author the dream... have I found him?..... or did HE FIND ME?

I am waiting to exhale..... Time and experience has given me the patience of a saint. I have lived several lifetimes preparing for the day when he has finally found me. I know he is before me, but does he know that I am before him? Does he?

Yes, I think he does.... time, time, precious time... No, I won't allow us to waist it anymore. It will stand still, yet continue on as our knowledge increases and our self-love grows....

Our friendship will go on; ever evolving, ever growing and maturing. Will our paths ever merge as one? It matters not. The final destination is wholely irrelevant to our relationship.

IT IS ALL ABOUT THE JOURNEY.

.....And we have but the rest of our lives.

 

[Shrebly]

Beauty Knows No Pain.....


You know you have my respect....


I'll leave it at that [for now].....

 

[Si|vio]

oh man, that was awful.

 

[ABall]

oh man, that was awful.

I agree. Its all crap. This is the type of stuff that women use to sucker their men into falling in love with them. JMO


A

 

[Bikini Mod]

If only I were in possession of such wisdom......

 

[smallmovesal]

while you're at it show us your ass... i have an opening to moderate another ass and you're on the short list

come on kinimom... you're missing out on a great opportunity!

 

[ABall]

If only I were in possession of such wisdom......

Hehe...c'mon, just admit that I have exposed you.


A

 

[naturally anabolic]

come on kinimom... you're missing out on a great opportunity!

peer pressure

 

[Jimsbbc]

Post em up so we can see your glorious glutes baby!!!

 

[Bikini Mod]

Hehe...c'mon, just admit that I have exposed you.


A

You're ok..... heheheheeee

No, 'tis no ploy. These are mere words printed on a screen. I am powerful, but I have to confess that I am quite powerless when it comes to "making someone fall in love".....

Besides, why on earth would I WANT to do such a thing?

WE ALL KNOW THAT TRUE BEAUTY COMES FROM WITHIN - THIS CAN NOT BE FEIGNED ANY MORE THAN IT CAN BE SULLIED....


And Smalls.... I feel ya gurlie - I really do. tee-hee

 

[Dogballs]

I HATE THAT SONG!

 

[ABall]

You're ok..... heheheheeee

No, 'tis no ploy. These are mere words printed on a screen. I am powerful, but I have to confess that I am quite powerless when it comes to "making someone fall in love".....

Besides, why on earth would I WANT to do such a thing?

WE ALL KNOW THAT TRUE BEAUTY COMES FROM WITHIN - THIS CAN NOT BE FEIGNED ANY MORE THAN IT CAN BE SULLIED....


And Smalls.... I feel ya gurlie - I really do. tee-hee

Well you are ok also.


A

 

[polarpixie]

that first narrative you posted is almost exactly like something that's happened to me before. I'm getting all dreamy eyed...

 

[Bikini Mod]

"I wish I didn't feel so strong about ya,
My happiness & love are all around ya,
Trying to catch your heart is like trying to catch a star,
So many people love ya baby, THAT MUST BE WHAT YOU ARE"

 

[chesty]

In the end all we have is a wish and hope.

 

[Bikini Mod]

Chesty, I took your advice.... and well, .

TAKE YOUR OWN ADVICE! You have nothing to lose.

 

[Temple]

Is this Star aligned with yours even if perhaps a bit elusive?

 

[Big Brother Val]

You rock, mama.


Mucho love.

 

[Bikini Mod]

Of all the stars in the heavens..... this one outshines the others by far. I don't know if it will ever fall for me, but I am happy just to know that perhaps someday far into the future, it will shine for me alone.... But even if that is never the case, I will still feel honored that its light illuminated my life in a time when the world was a dark and frightening place.

I am waiting.... it is so hard waiting.... but with the experiences of many lifetimes I have acquired the patience of a saint. Somehow, though, I don't think I will have to wait for an eternity... but that is after all what we have; an eternity.

My heart knows no boundaries. When it is called for I yield it freely, effortlessly and without expectation.

The final destination is of no concern. It is the journey that I desire. I am extending my hand. Don't be afraid because my grip is powerful. I won't let you fall. However, I know when to loose it so that you can stand tall on your own two feet ; that you can be the man THAT YOU ARE.

When I see you again, I will give you a hug that will make that first one pale in comparison... the only difference is, this time I will never let you go.

 

[chesty]

I have. I wrote her a quick letter see below:

Kim,
Could you do me a favor. Could you write me or call me and tell me how the girls are? What they have been doing over the years and how they are taking the letters. I need to know. And since they do not write back or call, I can only assume that they choose not to. But I don’t know, and not knowing is killing me day to day.

My email is xxx@xxxs if you would like to email me instead. There are some things which I need to tell you. Someday I hope I can. I hope all is well with you and that you are doing fine.

Steve

So, we shall see what happens.

Here is a pick of her in 1983, just after I asked her to marry me. It is essentially the only picture I have of her as she took all the rest.

 

[chesty]

Ooops, here it is.

 

[Bikini Mod]

So young and beautiful.... she has the face of an angel... I suspect that when you see her again time will not have touched that AT ALL.

Don't give up, Chesty.. if nothing else, you will be able to put the past to bed and begin a life WITH your children in it. It is NEVER TOO LATE FOR THAT!

We can't change the past - only learn from it, grow stronger, live today and affect the future.

 

[chesty]

That is what I am hoping for to put the demons to rest once and for all. Until then I am a restless spirit.

Isn't she beautiful? That is why I refer to her as an angel.

You know I have tried to hate her for so many years and just when I thoght I had won, she creeps back into my mind when I fall asleep or on a long drive after the sun has gone down and a light spring breeze moves past me carrying the scent of life, the buttercups and honeysuckle in full bloom. What I wouldn't give for that moment.

To take back what I didn't do on a warm fall evening when she called me to say she would be gone when I got home that night. If I had just listened to my heart instead of my macho self. Things would be different.

But that is what makes us. Our mistakes. And the path it leads on to eternal beauty. All I have to do is be patient. I am. I can wait till the air has stripped the power of the mountains away.

 

[Bikini Mod]

"Hello my friend, we meet again,
it's been a while, where should we begin,
feels like forever....

Within my heart, a memory,
a perferct love that you gave to me,
I remember....

When you are with me, I'm free,
I'm careless, I believe,
Above all the others, we'll fly,
This brings tears to my eyes ..... my sacrifice.

We've seen our share of ups and downs,
Oh, how quickly life can turn around in an instant....

It feels so good to reunite,
within your heart and within your mind,
Let's find peace there.....

'Cause when you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe,
Above all the others, we'll fly,
This brings tears to my eyes ..... my sacrifice

I just want to say, "Hello" again....

I just want to say, "Hello" again....

'Cause when you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe,
Above all the others, we'll fly,
This brings tears to my eyes ..... my sacrifice

I just want to say, "Hello" again.... my sacrifice"


For you, Chesty.....

For you and the one star that outshines all the others......

 

[chesty]

HOW DID YOU KNOW?

That is the exact song that gives me hope about her.

You are truly amazing.

 

[Bikini Mod]

Let us just say that I have "a gift" tee-hee

 

[chesty]

I think I'll call you Ms. Cleo. Although you are much cuter than she is!

 

[Bikini Mod]

tee-hee

Although I am not in possession of a crystal ball, Chesty you have no idea just how close you are.

 

[chesty]

Now we're talking! I love that freaky shit

 

[Bikini Mod]

You have mail.. and now I really must run.

Have a wonderful day!

 

[Sebass67]

Hey bikinimom...thanks for the nostalgia. Always throws in a little different element to the day.