Update on my first competition!

[TrapQueen]

Hi everyone! Thanks for all your great support. I did the Jr. California on 6.3.6, placed 2nd out of 4 in unlimited women, and was the only one in collegiate-not the way i want to win a 1st, but it's still nice and i still worked for it!!! had an amazing time, it was just surreal. I felt such personal satisfaction because i did my 60 sec routine in collegiate first, and wasn't totally happy w/it, but ended up getting to do it a second time for the unlimited and really nailed it, by the night show i was able to correct a couple more things so i improved each time. it felt so good. i was exhausted and the dehydration was the worst part of the process by far---even compared to the food, which for me is saying A LOT!!! if i ever play a role where i'm dying of thirst in a desert, i'm all set! anyway, i just read the post-competition article, very helpful, the emotions haven't really hit me yet, i've been bingeing some but not the same way i used to even a couple months ago, i know i'm getting better slooooooooooowwwly it seems sometimes, but i AM recovering and that's all that matters. the strength and confidence i've found from this are immeasurable. i've learned so much i really am writing a book, or i should say it's been writing itself. thank you again, i'll stay in touch, trapqueen

 

[Daisy_Girl]

COngrats!

 

[ischia99]

WOW Congrats thats awesome!!!! You see all that hard work paid off!! Any more shows coming up this year???? Also where r the pics!!!! Post em up girl!!!!!!


Ischia

 

[Sassy69]

Hey girl! CONGRATS! Nothing like your first show! Can you share some pix??

JFYI -- wanted to show you this fantastic article about post show rebound for reference --- I copied the text out of the "So you want to compete" sticky:

This is collectively known as Post Competition Syndrome -- it is a physiological reaction to the extremes of competition prep and it does exist. Most newbies hear about it but don't believe it until they experience it, and then they can't believe how dramatic the effect is. PLEASE READ THIS & UNDERSTAND WHAT IS INVOLVED!
http://www.mindandmuscle.net/mindandmuscle/magpage.php?issueID=40&artID=49

 

[treilin]

Great Job!!!!! I'll be on the look out for everything listed in here

 

[sbt2082]

Congratulations girl!!! Lookin forward to some pics now

 

[nikkita]

Congratulations!!

 

[que_66]

Woohooooooo Congrats!!!!!

Post those pics so we can see how fabulous you look!

Inspiration for the newbies!

 

[TrapQueen]

Hi everyone, my pix from 6.3.6: http://www.graphicmuscle.com/index.cfm?go2=contests_competitor&CompetitorID=10965

http://www.graphicmuscle.com/index.cfm?go2=comparisons&ContestYearID=685&DivisionName=Women

i'm happy w/how i did but to be honest i'm now in that post-comp depression, my eating disorder is kicking my ass right now ... i am still making progress overall in that area, and i'm confident by the next time i compete i'll be much better, but right now, reflecting on everything, feeling the emotions, this whole experience is like going through a type of trauma. it's life-changing and great and terrible. i have other things too causing me major stress which adds to it. but i know it'll get better. there were so many obstacles to overcome for that first show, hell--even the weather that day-the temp was 104 degrees in pasadena!--anyway, i'll keep going forward.
Dallas (trapqueen)

 

[mermaid]

Congratulations! - You look awesome!

 

[Lady Viking]

Congrats!

 

[Reese23]

Another round of applause and congrats coming your way, you look GREAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[whiteknight39]

Congrats!!!!

 

[Jamie Lynn]

Congrats girl!!! You look awesome.

 

[Gymgurl]

WOW you look great! Congrats on the hard work!

 

[Sassy69]

LOVE the abs shot!

 

[velvett]

I am so proud of you TrapQueen!

One for your strength to see this through to the end and for hitting it so well.

 

[que_66]

Hi everyone, my pix from 6.3.6: http://www.graphicmuscle.com/index.cfm?go2=contests_competitor&CompetitorID=10965

http://www.graphicmuscle.com/index.cfm?go2=comparisons&ContestYearID=685&DivisionName=Women

i'm happy w/how i did but to be honest i'm now in that post-comp depression, my eating disorder is kicking my ass right now ... i am still making progress overall in that area, and i'm confident by the next time i compete i'll be much better, but right now, reflecting on everything, feeling the emotions, this whole experience is like going through a type of trauma. it's life-changing and great and terrible. i have other things too causing me major stress which adds to it. but i know it'll get better. there were so many obstacles to overcome for that first show, hell--even the weather that day-the temp was 104 degrees in pasadena!--anyway, i'll keep going forward.
Dallas (trapqueen)

DAYUMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!! You look HAWTTTTTTTT!!!!!!




Sorry to hear about the emotional rollercoaster, I hope things start leveling out for you.

 

[jenscats5]

WOW!! Great pics!! You look awesome!! Congrats!!

 

[florencia]

Congratulations! You look great hope you feel better and I must read Sassy's ¨So you want to compete sticky¨

 

[TrapQueen]

You guys are awesome! Love the support
Trapqueen

 

[florencia]

You guys are awesome! Love the support
Trapqueen

Hi! I saw your pictures of the competition, and I cannot figure out who won first place...I think you were the best.
Are you doing better with the eating disorder? I think it would be great if you share your thoughts, and how the mind kinda plays tricks on you...It does to me so...LOL I am supposing it happens to you too!
I iamgine if I lower my BF to 14 I will never want to get it back to actual 18...
How does that come into play? Such hard work and not wanting to let go of food rythm?Because of rise in BF%?

 

[TrapQueen]

Hi! I saw your pictures of the competition, and I cannot figure out who won first place...I think you were the best.
Are you doing better with the eating disorder? I think it would be great if you share your thoughts, and how the mind kinda plays tricks on you...It does to me so...LOL I am supposing it happens to you too!
I iamgine if I lower my BF to 14 I will never want to get it back to actual 18...
How does that come into play? Such hard work and not wanting to let go of food rythm?Because of rise in BF%?

hi there! if you go to www.graphicmuscle.com when you click on jr. california on the right it'll show on the next page in the middle the 1st place winner. i do think it was close.
the eating disorder ... daily struggle, definitely went overboard on the food for the week after the show, this last week i've struggled to get control again. i stopped eating recreational sugar nine months ago, which took a loooong time to finally be willing to let go, and now i've had to let go of some other foods. i've overcome other addictions that people would think would be much harder, but this is the toughest thing ever. the obsession is relentless, the compulsion is beyond powerful. overall it IS getting better, i'm making progress, but this is the "mean time" right now. the depression is pretty bad. all my shorts are too tight to wear. i'm disgusted. the thing getting me through is knowing that this-as w/everything else in life-is temporary. and i know the next time i go through this-competing-i'll be more recovered and will have a healthier relationship w/food. i definitely understand the mind playing tricks, it is like i am two people w/totally opposing wills, and can change from one to the next in an instant, that's addiction. how crazy is it to take diuretics and fatburners, drink distilled water and do cardio in the morning, only to binge that night? only the insanity of addiction can make me do such things, i don't want to do this to myself. i had the same thought of if i get my bf% low enough i won't want to go back up and that would be motivation enough to keep me there, but once again i was humbled by the power of the compulsion. i have faith it won't always be like this bc of overcoming the other addictions, i just have to keep doing the work and become more willing to let go. thanks for asking about this, i know i need to share this stuff. if i didn't answer all your questions, let me know. p.s. they put more of my pix up on http://www.graphicmuscle.com/index.cfm?go2=contests_competitor&CompetitorID=10965
i had to do a bev francis on that last one--i love her.
take care, talk soon trapqueen