Look, here's the deal, while I thought I was the 'love of her life' and such, I was really just a crutch for her to use to have someone to care about her until she fully got over her divorce and could move on with her life. I have no doubts that she loved me but not in the way that I loved her, I truly would have done anything for her and could not have broken her heart, the fact that this is all that I was in the end is one of the most painful aspects of this thing. Also the surprising speed at which it happened as well, ie, one day, you think everything's fine, the next is like some nightmare but worse because I can't even sleep to make it go away...