Honestly, certain aspects of socialism are appealing

Sue me, I actually WANT to go live on a commune, I just can't find one. What's so wrong with pooling resources and working together toward a common good? I don't, and will never, understand why socialism is such a dirty word in this country. Frankly, a society completely focused on materialism and greed, driven only by self interest, is an ugly beast.
When you start saying "if you can't afford medical care you don't deserve it" or "if you can't afford a good education, and aren't smart enough to get scholarships, then you
should spend the rest of your life poor" it's elitism, and that's better than socialism? Whatever happened to a little basic compassion, lending your fellow man a hand up?
If a "rich" person is going to resent paying more taxes than a "poor" person then let's take it to the logical conclusion, why do we permit mentally and physically handicapped individuals to collect SSD? For that matter, why do we even allow babies that are born that are hopeless cripples, that are abandoned by their parents, to live at all?
Why is it that the edges can be hard when we're talking about the top tax brackets versus the bottom brackets, and yet they start going all fuzzy when we're talking about people who will NEVER contribute a dime to society and be nothing but a 75 year drain on Social Security, Medicaid and all the other public service programs?