Suicide

[Stefka]

Another one of my friends decided to take that road.
It just makes no sense to me.
Why are the people with so much life in them always the ones to kill themselves?

 

[javaguru]

Sorry to hear that...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OgYP2PWLKLs

it's sad when young people can't see they have unlimited options...

 

[Sub-Zero]

thats awful. im sorry to hear about your loss. and i feel for anyone who feels so lost that they end themselves

 

[puddlemonkey]

You and that Mash video!!!!!!

 

[Stefka]

Sorry to hear that...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OgYP2PWLKLs

it's sad when young people can't see they have unlimited options...

Thanks.
But you had to bring MASH into this, didn't you.
I'm gonna miss that kid.
He was with me on some of my craziest adventures.

 

[puddlemonkey]

Sorry to hear that...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OgYP2PWLKLs

it's sad when young people can't see they have unlimited options...

I'm not sure how much you're going to enjoy that MASH video when its up your ass!

 

[javaguru]

Thanks.
But you had to bring MASH into this, didn't you.
I'm gonna miss that kid.
He was with me on some of my craziest adventures.

Life is about choices...I've put some nasty shit in my past...in my past...It's sad when people can't see they have a future. Suicide is a choice and it's a selfish choice for the reasons you mentioned.

 

[Stefka]

Suicide is so not painless.
This just left a huge group of friends wondering what they could have done.
Damn it.
He would have been fine.

 

[javaguru]

I'm not sure how much you're going to enjoy that MASH video when its up your ass!

Why are you thinking about my ass???

 

[Stefka]

Life is about choices...I've put some nasty shit in my past...in my past...It's sad when people can't see they have a future. Suicide is a choice and it's a selfish choice for the reasons you mentioned.

I wonder if he even knew how much this would impact old friends like me.
I hate the whole "why did he do it" thing.
Everyone says he seemed fine last week.

 

[javaguru]

Suicide is so not painless.
This just left a huge group of friends wondering what they could have done.
Damn it.
He would have been fine.

A kid I knew blew his brains out in the town square in high school....That's my point, it's a selfish act of a coward....

 

[puddlemonkey]

Why are you thinking about my ass???

You're right, thats the first place you'd go looking for a missing object. Bad idea on my part. I'll hide it next to the bible.

 

[Stefka]

A kid I knew blew his brains out in the town square in high school....That's my point, it's a selfish act of a coward....

He wasn't a coward.
Maybe he was lost.
He was alone.
I'm not even mad at him (yet).
I just wish he understood that he had the life that so many people dreamed of and he had so many people who cared about him.
He was one of a kind.
I guess the wild and reckless thing can go hand in hand with some serious self-loathing.
I've been thinking about him nonstop for the last 4 days.
This is making me sick.
He was a great friend to have.

 

[javaguru]

He wasn't a coward.
Maybe he was lost.
He was alone.
I'm not even mad at him (yet).
I just wish he understood that he had the life that so many people dreamed of and he had so many people who cared about him.
He was one of a kind.
I guess the wild and reckless thing can go hand in hand with some serious self-loathing.
I've been thinking about him nonstop for the last 4 days.
This is making me sick.
He was a great friend to have.

Sorry, easy way out...he was a selfish person that only cared about himself...

 

[biteme]

I couldn't do that because of the pain that it would cause others. I'd just gut it out and let nature do it's job. I won't attempt to judge those that do off themselves.

 

[Sub-Zero]

Suicide is so not painless.
This just left a huge group of friends wondering what they could have done.
Damn it.
He would have been fine.

suicide is painless compared to the pain felt leading up to it...

but the old cliched statement that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem is 99% the case usually

 

[Stefka]

Sorry, easy way out...he was a selfish person that only cared about himself...

I'm not making excuses for him.
But he was alone.
Maybe he forgot about all the people who actually did give a shit about him.
I can't get the things that he told me out of my head.
He was all about making something out of himself.
Getting out of the small resort town...
Did he think he hit a dead end?
Did he really know what he was doing?
So many questions...

 

[Sub-Zero]

Sorry, easy way out...he was a selfish person that only cared about himself...

java quit being such a fuckin faggot. hopefully you never have to feel pain enough to drive you to such extreme measures.

it doesnt matter if he stubbed his fucking toe the day before, he was suffering enough to end everything

 

[Stefka]

I can't get this shit out of my head.
I guess there are no answers.

 

[javaguru]

I'm not making excuses for him.
But he was alone.
Maybe he forgot about all the people who actually did give a shit about him.
I can't get the things that he told me out of my head.
He was all about making something out of himself.
Getting out of the small resort town...
Did he think he hit a dead end?
Did he really know what he was doing?
So many questions...

and there are countless people in the same situation that don't hurt their friends and family.....I spent four months in a state prison...not jail..I'm a convicted felon and a combat veteran that saw and did shit I'm not proud of....I would never hurt my mother like that.....

 

[Stefka]

and there are countless people in the same situation that don't hurt their friends and family.....I spent four months in a state prison...not jail..I'm a convicted felon and a combat veteran that saw and did shit I'm not proud of....I would never hurt my mother like that.....

I'm still in the sad/ don't understand stage.
Dont push me.
I just want to vent.

 

[javaguru]

This was the vid on my que before the MASH one...an Iraq vet suicide....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qMMIxFM4gog

 

[Stefka]

He liked to fish and get lost in the woods and play in the snow.
He laughed a lot.

 

[javaguru]

He liked to fish and get lost inthe woods and play in the snow.
He laughed a lot.

Yes, remember the good times, it makes no sense empathy woman..you couldn't have stopped it and you just need to accept it.

 

[Stefka]

Yes, remember the good times, it makes no sense empathy woman..you couldn't have stopped it and you just need to accept it.

I'm getting there.
I'm just rambling.
Som many things are running around in my head.
He would have been 33 in November.

 

[javaguru]

I'm getting there.
I'm just rambling.
Som many things are running around in my head.
He would have been 33 in November.

I know, empathy Stefka still thinks she missed something and could have stopped it....it has nothing to do with you.....