Sorry guys

[Thaibox]

I'm sorry about my last thread. I didn't mean to put crap on the board. I just wanted to thank the people here that have been friends over time. I also wanted to acknowledge the people that shared their concern on my last thread. It meant a lot. I wish there was someway I could keep in touch with many of you over time. You're good people.

The reason I was so negative, is because my list of life failures is longer than that of anyone I know. I hold myself to much higher standards than most, and can't handle being less than one of the best. So being one of the worst, or not even part of something(spec-ops) is unacceptable. I can no longer do any of the things that drive me.

The night after I wrote that thread, I took a bottle of Ambien, 120mg of valium, and half a bottle of Bombay. Well, I failed at that too. So, even though I'm still pretty sick from doing that...I'm still around unfortunately.

I'm not going to post on the boards anymore because I just don't feel like I have anything to add.

This certainly doesn't add anything positive, but I had to write it. Thank you again to the people that have been such good friends. Good luck to everyone in their training and life. There are many bros, and certainly sis's) that have the potential to shake the world with the skill and heart they possess. Never stop. I look forward to seeing many of you at the top of your game.

 

[from zero]

I'm not going to post on the boards anymore because I just don't feel like I have anything to add.

Your knowledge of training is highly respected bro.

Please seek out some help man.

 

[Screwball]

Keep your head up and look for new challenges. Your best days are ahead of you.

 

[louden_swain]

Thai,

All of that stuff is in the past. . .now it is time. . time to start new things.

You are never a failure. . there are plenty of chances to make things work.

I have faith in you.

Stay strong

 

[kingc_79]

man, we all have our ups and downs in life. you never know what's gonna get thrown your way, but quitting is no way to handle it. you just have to find a way to adapt and overcome. your a warrior so there's no reason you can't. and yes you have plenty to contribute to this board so theres no reason for you to go anywhere.

 

[BigBadBootyDaddy29]

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The night after I wrote that thread, I took a bottle of Ambien, 120mg of valium, and half a bottle of Bombay. Well, I failed at that too. So, even though I'm still pretty sick from doing that...I'm still around unfortunately.

I wouldn't look at that as a failure, I would look at it as a message from a higher power that it isn't your time and you have a lot to offer the world, and there are plenty of good reasons for you to be here.

I refrained from posting on the original thread because I don't know you that well, but we always seemed to have a mutual respect for one another on the boards.

The fact that you are sharing this part of your life with the boards, people you feel close to, leads me to believe that you don't really want to do anything rash. I've been through some crazy shit in my life, and I have my share of skeletons in my closet, shit has happened to me, and I have done a lot of shit I am not too proud of, but I have put the past in the past. Even though we don't really know each other personally, sometimes it helps to talk to someone with similar interests who you have things in common with and can relate to. If I didn't have people I could vent to and get a reality check on things and put life in perspective, I probably wouldn't be here right now. I will PM you my phone number if you want to give me a buzz.

Life is a roller coaster ride, don't get too down. Good luck with everything.

 

[PolishHammer1977]

You can always call the Hammer if you need an ear.

 

[pwr_machine]

Re: Re: Sorry guys

I wouldn't look at that as a failure, I would look at it as a message from a higher power that it isn't your time and you have a lot to offer the world, and there are plenty of good reasons for you to be here.

That's a good point. There have been many times where it seemed like my dreams were unattainable. And I took a new path that I didn't think was the right path. But in the end, it was the right path and I'm glad those down times led me to good times.

 

[t3c]

DO NOT GIVE UP!

 

[Mike_Rojas]

I hope you change your mind and continue posting here. I've always enjoyed your posts.

 

[queena_82]

I too refraind from posting on your last thread because I didn't know you. But I do know this... These guys here on the board really do care, there not telling you all this to try and make themselves look better, I know most of them and they really are that genuinly kind hearted. Like they said we all have our ups and downs. Someone once quoted me something that has really stuck with me " That which doesn't kill me, only makes me stronger" That couldn't be any more correct. You really do have alot to offer...everyone was looking very forward to meeting you at Clints and were disapointed when you didn't show up, that just goes to show you how great these guys really are. You couldn't ask for better friends than the ones you have made here on elite. Keep your head up, God obviously has GREAT plans for you!

 

[overhead]

Thaibox, A person very close to me was army spec-ops. Due to an injury , he had to leave the military. He had a VERY difficult time adjusting to life outside the community, he tried to find things to help, but between the injury and the lack or being part of the team he was a mess. He struggled with it for a couple of years, and being a warrior he did not want to admit he needed help. After hitting bottom, and realizing he was doing things that were self destructive he finally contacted the VA to get help, they have people who are experienced with these types of problems. I do not know if this is what is causing you distress, but if it is, seek help. It is out there!!!

 

[Advaik]

DO NOT GIVE UP!

Yea keep trying, maybe double the dose of valium next time!

Ok ok just kidding it was a cheap shot I admit

If you tried to commit suicide and failed isnt that telling you something? No damnit not that you're a failure but that maybe it isnt your time. God has a plan for you just wait it out

 

[MULE1]

Holy shit dude, life kicks us all in the nuts once in awhile, it's sure as fuck worth not cashing it in over.

the fucking measure of a man is not what he does, what he lifts or any of that other crap. There are biliions of people walking the face of the earth, in the grand sceme of things what you do means shit except to those directly around you.

Not sure what happened to you and I'm sorry if you can't do what you want, but get over it, you still fucking alive...

 

[Scotsman]

Thai- You obviously mean something to people around here. Also think about those in your life like your family. They love and respect you and for that you can never be a failure.

Cheers,
Scotsman

 

[b fold the truth]

I'm still waiting for that email with your number in it....

B True

 

[JOKER47]

You have so much to offer on these boards. Please continue to post. Your experience is invaluable. As is your concern for the other members.

You have a PM.


Joker

 

[queena_82]

I'm still waiting for that email with your number in it....

B True

Trust me.. bfold is serious! Hes a great guy, caring, and so easy to talk to.....not to metion the best motivational speaker I know! I think you could find definate comfort in anything that he could say to you!

 

[Tony104104]

Keep your head up and stay strong bro.....It's going to really suck if you don't post here anymore....

Tony

I sent you a PM....Please respond if you get a chance...

 

[Tiervexx]

I don't really know you but i do enjoy your posts.

I can think of many others that I would rather see go than you.

 

[kingc_79]

Yea keep trying, maybe double the dose of valium next time!

Ok ok just kidding it was a cheap shot I admit

If you tried to commit suicide and failed isnt that telling you something? No damnit not that you're a failure but that maybe it isnt your time. God has a plan for you just wait it out

sorry dont mean to sound like a butt...but that was stupid and uncalled for.

 

[Advaik]

sorry dont mean to sound like a butt...but that was stupid and uncalled for.

i know hey i ended it on a good note atleast! give me some credit...

 

[Lord_Suston]

Failure is only temporary if you get up and try some more. Don't ever quit because in the end you want to be able to say to yourself I gave it my all....

 

[Zander1983]

It has all been said really... But, I still need to say that I don't want to see you give up like this. Its unacceptable and we won't stand for it.

 

[SofaGeorge]

thaibox... I'm waving the red flag again... if you are to the point you are drowning in a bottle of ambien YOU HAVE CHEMICAL DEPRESSION! Quit ignoring it and get treated. Treating your depression is the first step you need to take to start succeeding again.

 

[Tiervexx]

thaibox... I'm waving the red flag again... if you are to the point you are drowning in a bottle of ambien YOU HAVE CHEMICAL DEPRESSION! Quit ignoring it and get treated. Treating your depression is the first step you need to take to start succeeding again.

i think sofa is on to something. You might hate yourself a lot less if you got some zyoloft or something.

 

[c3bodybuilding]

Listen to Sofa on this one. Get to a doctor and FAST. When you get to that point, it's not going to end anytime soon. It will only get worse. You need to talk to someone, and get on some medicine asap.

I had very bad depression, and tried something similiar. I quickly realised that it wasn't the answer. I went and got help. 4 years later, and my life is great. I look back, and I don't even think that person was me.

You don't have to deal with this alone, get help. If you need help, or need to talk, please PM me anytime. You have many people here who care for you, don't shut yourself out.

 

[PlatnumKowboy]

I don't know if this will mean anything to you Thaibox but there is this old Zen story that I really like. It reminds you to ignore the past and the future but be sure to enjoy the present moment.

"One day while walking through the wilderness a man stumbled upon a vicious tiger. He ran but soon came to the edge of a high cliff. Desperate to save himself, he climbed down a vine and dangled over the fatal precipice. As he hung there, two mice, one white and one black, appeared from a hole in the cliff and began gnawing on the vine. Suddenly, he noticed on the vine a plump wild strawberry. He plucked it and popped it in his mouth. It was incredibly delicious!"

 

[Devastation]

I went thru a bout with depression 3 yrs ago. never did get help, tried od'ing, never got help, life went straight down the shitter. once I fully hit bottom, i had no place to go but up. and now i have the most positive attitude about anything in life in general and have no one else to thank but myself.


you are not your disease. you are not your injury.

never be complete, never be content. sometimes you have to go backwards to move forward. evolve and move forward.

 

[argent]

Thaibox, your opinions are highly valued on these boards bro. You've helped more people, directly or indirectly, than you probably realize. The best thing you can do for yourself is go talk to someone. A doctor or shrink will be able to help you out, but don't overlook talking to someone else about it either. Sometimes it helps just to know that someone else knows what your going through and how your feeling.