Slipping Into The Darkness????????

[MommaKin]

WHEN I'M HURTING

It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.
It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.


It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.
It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges.


It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.


If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.


But it's the easy roads that are most often taken.
And so I hurt alone.


--Jo A. Witt
Copyright 2000

 

[ABall]

Lay off the clomid.



A

 

[WODIN]

when I'm Hurting

I've rubbed out one too many.........

 

[MommaKin]

Eternity
by Marilyn




Wandering in darkness grope,
Finding not a glimpse of hope.
Fingers touch to find my way,
Each foot fall, my heart betrays
The fear which drives me through the day.

Suddenly the ground is lost,
Flailing arms as body's tossed.
Splashing down in crimson pool,
The warm embrace is much too cruel,
I curse this lowly, wretched fool.

Floundering in this self made hell,
Warmth increasing as I dwell,
Within the confines I create,
Screaming as myself berate,
Giving in to this, my fate.

 

[MommaKin]

And Yet I Die
by Marilyn




I see the stars sparkling so bright,
Within the moon kissed sky.
I hear the lark so sweetly sing,
Amidst the morning dawn.
I smell the flower full in bloom,
And see their royal pomp.

And yet some place so deep within,
I'm shrouded and I'm closed.
The brilliance there I can't see,
In mists of misery.
Enshrined inside, unable thus,
To touch the warmth without.

I gaze upon this passion spent,

And yet . . . Inside I die.

 

[ABall]

I thought I told you to lay off the clomid. Stop this insanity!


A

 

[smallmovesal]

everything ok lisa?

 

[Boach]

You sound a little down, today Lisa. Anything I can do to cheer you up or anything you want to talk about?

 

[smallmovesal]

 

[Boach]

I joined a new club today. It's where men like me can share in the pain of having the same genetic based affliction. It strengthens me.

 

[MommaKin]

Ok...I laughed....only for a few seconds though

 

[Boach]

Here's my sponsor and me posing for the monthly news letter. I'm such a cowboy.

 

[addickt]

I slipped into the darkness and lurk there indefinitely. Waiting for souls like your to get close.......... Then when you THINK you are slipping into the darkness............ I slither out of this wretched corner I reside in, just long enough to destroy your hope in humanity and poison your last remaining sanctity that you hold on to. Then I drag you back into the REAL darkness and envelope your soul with hatred and loathing.

I hope I helped

 

[bigguns7]

when I'm Hurting

I've rubbed out one too many.........

Poetry . . . pure poetry.

You know with a little work you could make that a haiku.

 

[MommaKin]

you're sick Boach....