Sassy69
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In the past I had looked to my time in the gym just as a very self-indulgent, very physically, mentally and emotionally satisfying pastime and energy outlet. Over the last 5 yrs I've gone thru some very frustrating job situations where I really had very little control to make things "good" in each of the situations (has generally been due to retarded upper management). Since I am single and just dont' have a lot of close friends/family physically near me, I have to have some part of my life to draw satisfaction from or I go nuts. The gym was it. Since I've lifted for so many years, it was very hard to just keep goign w/ no particular challenge in mind, so that's when I got into competition. When my job situation was loose enough that I had the time to spend on comp prep, I took it, and my job was just the time I had to sit thru before I could go hit the gym. And it paid the bills. This is ok for a while. But several times I've hit the point in my job where the longer I stayed in the deadend situation the more it started to count against me - as far my ability to amass quality experience and generally to give enough of a shit to show up to work. Then it was time to go. Each sitaution I moved to went sour & I ended up in teh same situation. This year the additional impact was age--- the ol' bod can't keep up w/ the demands of competition in the same sense of what I know & have known as "competition prep". So that means I have to figure out a new approach and also adjust my goals a little bit. Competitoin isn't really that big a deal to me right now, but it does then again raise the need for a feeling of purpose & accomplishment in some aspect of my life. So it really does need to come from the new job. It *really* does.
To be honest, I've spent all day wondering if I've regretted takign this job here in town and not pushing my buddy in San Francisco to get me hired at his company simply because the other leg of my life that figures in the "balance" we all need in life - social / personal life - suffers. I really don't like ATL as a place to spend my personal time. The traffic sucks moose cawk like nothing I've never experienced and there's just nothing special here to be near (unless you happened to own a house & boat up on one of the lakes -- that are still an hr + drive north). So that means another thing that HAS to happen w/ my job is interesting people and lots of opportunity to travel and hopefully find some sort of interesting activities or people in the area down by my office.....
I still have to make it thru 2 more days before I can start making any honest comments about whether or not I will be happy w/ my decision, but it is so hard.... That's why I still just have to wait and see how things settle in and see what new goals and constraints present themselves for me to set up my life around....
Dammit I ain't gettin' any younger so its important that I get to the business of living.
To be honest, I've spent all day wondering if I've regretted takign this job here in town and not pushing my buddy in San Francisco to get me hired at his company simply because the other leg of my life that figures in the "balance" we all need in life - social / personal life - suffers. I really don't like ATL as a place to spend my personal time. The traffic sucks moose cawk like nothing I've never experienced and there's just nothing special here to be near (unless you happened to own a house & boat up on one of the lakes -- that are still an hr + drive north). So that means another thing that HAS to happen w/ my job is interesting people and lots of opportunity to travel and hopefully find some sort of interesting activities or people in the area down by my office.....
I still have to make it thru 2 more days before I can start making any honest comments about whether or not I will be happy w/ my decision, but it is so hard.... That's why I still just have to wait and see how things settle in and see what new goals and constraints present themselves for me to set up my life around....
Dammit I ain't gettin' any younger so its important that I get to the business of living.