said goodbye today

[Buddy_Christ]

spent all weekend down at the house finishing things up. left thursday afternoon, didn't get back home til about 6 or 7 tonight, and immediately had to start unloading the blazer. we got her car about halfway unloaded and decided to call it quits. we'll finish her car tomorrow evening.

car troubles on the way home, and i'm really wondering how much longer that fucking rustbucket is going to be drivable at this rate. can't afford a breakdown right now, and really don't feel like putting the beretta back on the road (although we still have it just in case the blazer takes a shit on us).

had to take a few minutes to walk around the house by myself before we left. took pictures inside and out, but the place looks like a dump right now. have a guy going in tomorrow to clear out everything else that's left in the house. mattresses, couches, bunch of other large stuff i couldn't get rid of on my own. that's going to cost $900-1200 including dump charges. even with the place looking like shit, you can still remember all the hundreds of things that have happened in each room. if i didn't have a reason to sell the house, i wouldn't. even with the house gone, the memories are still alive.

settlement is thursday, which afterwards i'll finally be able to breathe a sigh of relief. a couple of last minute issues have been brought up, so i'm kind of antsy about settlement going smoothly. everything should be fine though.

pretty much taking this week off from the gym. body needs a break. well, my shoulders need a break, the rest of me is ok. planning on hitting deads and legs this week, and if anything else, it'll be light. going to try to relax and maybe organize some of the stuff we took from the house.

it's been a long haul and while i'm glad it's over, it's also sad as well. hopefully i'll start getting back to "normal" by the time this week is over. we'll see.

done my rant. thanks.

 

[Burning_Inside]

what is all this for

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

I hope the settlement goes smoothly also

 

[Buddy_Christ]

what is all this for

clearing out my grandmother's house to sell it. placed her in an assisted living home in the end of May. she hasn't been in the house since feburary, as she was placed into a nursing home after spending a few days in the hospital.

that's the short short version.

 

[Pimp C Deuce]

Hope everything goes smooth bro, I've followed some of the other threads.

Best of luck man.

 

[RADAR]

Good Luck man, i have already been down that road> Stay strong it will get better.


RADAR

 

[Buddy_Christ]

thanks for the kind words. just been real rough on me and kinda turned me into an asshole again. maybe it was just my way of bottling things up or just frustration. i dunno. life can hopefully smooth out a little bit from here on out.

my sister asked my girlfriend how she can stand living with me.....said i was being an asshole all weekend. well, i was more than fed up with working on that house. i've been mentally exhausted for weeks and trying to keep track of what's going on with the house, school, kids, stuff at home, all that good shit. i kind of let that show this weekend, but hey, it was bound to happen eventually. plus i had, for the most part, taken complete charge of everything that was going on. someone had to do it, and i've put more than twice the time and effort into all of this than anyone else has (and i've had a lot of help from a few people that was more than greatly appreciated).

now time to get my own life back into order. jumped on the scale this morning and came in at a feather light 160lbs. i wanted to cry. i'm down from the 170lbs i was up to in the beginning of the month, and i was slimming down a bit a month ago but keeping the weight on. barely eating every weekend and minimal sleep took it's toll on me. as life returns to normal now, i'll be busting my ass (starting NEXT week) to gain it all back.

again, thanks for the kind words and comments from everyone. those things from anyone and everyone around me have been the small reassurances i've needed to keep myself going. in the end, i'm taking comfort in the fact that i've done the right thing for someone that means a lot to me. nothing can replace that feeling.

 

[RADAR]

thanks for the kind words. just been real rough on me and kinda turned me into an asshole again. maybe it was just my way of bottling things up or just frustration. i dunno. life can hopefully smooth out a little bit from here on out.

my sister asked my girlfriend how she can stand living with me.....said i was being an asshole all weekend. well, i was more than fed up with working on that house. i've been mentally exhausted for weeks and trying to keep track of what's going on with the house, school, kids, stuff at home, all that good shit. i kind of let that show this weekend, but hey, it was bound to happen eventually. plus i had, for the most part, taken complete charge of everything that was going on. someone had to do it, and i've put more than twice the time and effort into all of this than anyone else has (and i've had a lot of help from a few people that was more than greatly appreciated).

now time to get my own life back into order. jumped on the scale this morning and came in at a feather light 160lbs. i wanted to cry. i'm down from the 170lbs i was up to in the beginning of the month, and i was slimming down a bit a month ago but keeping the weight on. barely eating every weekend and minimal sleep took it's toll on me. as life returns to normal now, i'll be busting my ass (starting NEXT week) to gain it all back.

again, thanks for the kind words and comments from everyone. those things from anyone and everyone around me have been the small reassurances i've needed to keep myself going. in the end, i'm taking comfort in the fact that i've done the right thing for someone that means a lot to me. nothing can replace that feeling.

Absolutely,and now its time for Crak, don't worry muscle memory is an amazing thing you will be back better than ever before you know it.
You have my respect sucking it up and taking care of things, now you can rest with a clear conscience.


RADAR

 

[Buddy_Christ]

thanks Radar.

i've still been in the gym hitting the weights hard for the last 2 months. i think that's helped me to keep some sanity. hoping i can get back up to 170 in the next month (my weight has been like a yo-yo lately). if i can, that'll put me +10lbs from where i was last year and leaner. i'll be satisfied with that as my results for a first year training hard.

 

[bran987]

crak, dealing with everything you deal with, as far as kids that aren't yours, girlfriends, and the unfortunate situation with your grandmother, I can't believe you don't explode even more than you already do.

and you do explode on here a lot.

pilonidal power!

 

[Buddy_Christ]

lol thanks bran.

only one kid isn't mine. she's a good kid, just has a lot of issues that we're working on with her. my son is my buddy though. i told him the other day that he was "the man." he says "no daddy, you are a man. i'm not a man, i'm a boy."

at least he's learning his position on the food chain around here

 

[Buddy_Christ]

ranting and raving on the net is actually good for me. i can spout off here and just blowoff a little steam so i don't go into complete maniac mode around the house. i think over the past 2 weeks, however, my gf has been ready to toss me out of the house. when i'm stressed out, anyone around me can tell. i've been good towards the kids though. i never take anything out on them. me and her, however, have had some pretty nasty arguements over some really stupid shit in the past few weeks. my bad moods have easily rubbed off on her.

i've gotten "better" today though. i think. i'll try to keep providing high quality posts of insanity around here. shouldn't be too hard to accomplish.

 

[bran987]

lol thanks bran.

only one kid isn't mine. she's a good kid, just has a lot of issues that we're working on with her. my son is my buddy though. i told him the other day that he was "the man." he says "no daddy, you are a man. i'm not a man, i'm a boy."

at least he's learning his position on the food chain around here

hey I didn't know the boy was yours!

crak is a daddy?



awwwwwwwww

 

[biteme]

thanks Radar.

i've still been in the gym hitting the weights hard for the last 2 months. i think that's helped me to keep some sanity. hoping i can get back up to 170 in the next month (my weight has been like a yo-yo lately). if i can, that'll put me +10lbs from where i was last year and leaner. i'll be satisfied with that as my results for a first year training hard.

Just use my avatar as motivation. Couple of months and you'll be able wear a bra as well.

 

[Buddy_Christ]

yes sir. he's mini-me. you put pics of me and him at the same age together and it's hard to tell the difference. scary actually.

pic of him while we were cruising home Sunday. As we've done for the past month and a half, the sub box was right up behind the front seats and the back of the blazer was loaded up. we jammed to a few Tool CDs on the 2 1/2 hour ride home. he was drinking fruit punch, thus the red mouth. right after the pic was snapped, i had to tell him to get the car out of his mouth. he loves his cars and trains....don't fuck with them or he'll tell you where to go shove it.

 

[Buddy_Christ]

Just use my avatar as motivation. Couple of months and you'll be able wear a bra as well.

thanks biteme. end of next month i'll be posting up a full year of progress pics. i think i might be ready for a trainer bra soon

 

[bran987]

your arm looks thick in that last picture

 

[Buddy_Christ]

your arm looks thick in that last picture

it was probably flexed as i was grasping the steering wheel for dear life hoping the car wouldn't go out of control at 70mph with a fridge in the back and a bunch of shit on the roof. the alignment is kind of off in that thing, and all the stuff on the roof was catching the wind and actually moving us around slightly. it was like having a sail on top. very strange feeling while driving.

i've got pics of the car loaded up i'll have to post tomorrow.

 

[Buddy_Christ]

pics of the car loaded up. the wind caught that stuff on the roof a few times and as i said above, it felt like i had a sail on top of the car.

i've said it many times, but i'll say it again....i'm so happy this is all about to be over.

 

[Dakotah]

good luck with everything crak

Hope everything goes well for you.