Phemomena
Thanks for the response P.
100mg - 50mg no big difference!!
Anyway, you hit the nail on the head. I have gone off cycle, and she quit taking my stuff all together. I had to hide everything so she couldn't find it. I am going on little walks around the neighborhood with her, and I have set her up with a cardio bike in the garage with a sterio so she can try to get her metabolism going again.
The self confidence thing is a definite issue with her. Exactly what is going on, I don't know. I think her family was abusive when she was a kid, and she moved around a lot. She doesn't know how to have a home, and how to feel secure. She hasn't seen her shrink in a while, and I will suggest it.
So, she is off all drugs, (well maybe some dank now and then), but definitely no anabolics. She looks puffy and sad, and has a constant head ache, and hasn't gone to work for two weeks now, but I think she is getting her mind organized, and will get better.
Just basic stuff really. The other day, she was just crazy and out of her mind. She hadn't changed the sheets in days, hadn't taken a bath, was feeling rejected and like I was going to leave her, and couldn't stop crying about it. She called me at work and I couldn't even understand what she was saying. So, I went home. I got her into the tub, did the laundry, cooked her some soup, lathered her up with some good body lotion, put that stuff on her lips, got her out to walk around with me outside for a few minutes, and she has been much better since then. For some reason she forgets how to take care of herself, and I have to remind her.
You might think me an ass, but if I started acting like that, no one would take care of me. I would just die, loose my job, be picked up by the cops and thrown in jail. So, I don't let things get out of control like that; because of the consequences. Why isn't she responsible for her own wellbeing, like I am? I don't think it is fair, that I have to pull her ass along, on top of doing everything else, like paying the mortgate.