Sly, I feel you bro! I was only on 37.5mgs of tren a day and now I'm out of that. I am gonna try to get some halo to get me to the sixth. My mood is decent I guess, as much as it can be. My heart really isn't in this upcoming show, it will be my last. I am done with drugs. Other things are more important to me now. I never thought I would hear myself say these things, it's very strange. It's not that I regret any of it because it has been awsome. I have a girl that I want a family with now and I have found religion. It is almost surreal saying these things, my life has totally changed in the last month. I'm doing this show for my family, that's the only reason. I will always be passionate about the gym and bodybuilding, I just want other things now. My body is no longer the focus of my life. I mean no disprespect to anyone by these statements of course, I have just changed.