It is rather informative to read the OP's entire post history. It seems pretty evident that he not here for advice, he is here to find someone to tell him it is ok to do whatever it is he wants to do. He has had more than half a year of good advice here, all of which he has ignored, which leads him to the predicament he is now in. I think the answer he is looking for now is how to convince a doctor to prescribe him trt (with normal levels, and at 19 years old....not gonna happen).
OP, if you are still around here....you remind me of how I was at your age (I was slightly younger actually)...I have a feeling you are actually a very intelligent person, but unfortunately this kind of person is often the hardest to get to listen to reason. You have on this board, a wealth of experience...something that I never had access to when I was your age (pre-internet)...please don't let it go to waste....take advantage of the knowledge, information, and experience that are at your fingertips. Your best bet right now is likely a test booster. Give it a shot, I think you will be pleasantly surprised.