Mermaid's Log

[Miss24k]

Mermaid, this is your log, and nobody can take that away from you, no matter what your goals are, they are yours and this board and the ladies are here to help you reach them. You don't have to be a serious as other ladies, you do as much as you're happy with and comfortable with.

lol @ NYC, yea watch out for my I like to use it often. lol

 

[mermaid]

OMG, you girls really are the best. I love the support I get here

SG, it's been a rough few days at work. Meetings, presentations, business dinners galore. Good news is that I've made a breakthrough with my boss - I think he is finally taking my opinions on board; I guess it just took some time for him to trust me. Plus I'm a woman. And he's a - how can I say - a traditionalist when it comes to women in the workplace in management. I force myself to be so unemotional at work (to gain the respect) that I turn to jello when I come home.

I am so looking forward to the weekend.

Anyway, I've fallen off the wagon but not as I quite expected. Missing meals due to poor planning and being busy and no gym time. The funny thing is I am craving to eat my purple cottage cheese concoction and egg whites. Weird because it's a distinct change within me but good, obviously. I thought I would be able to perform a "Body for Life Challenge" miracle in the twelve weeks I've been logging. Um, no and I have great respect for people who do. I've just taken "baby steps" to a new level. And that's OK too because it's a life change I'm going through.

Enough rambling.

And Ms24k and anyone else who feels it necessary? Please use the on me any time you like

 

[musclemom]

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... oops, meant to send this via PM ...

 

[buffalogal]

You're awesome girl! Just keep it going and think of what you would be craving if you hadn't decided to make this change.

 

[musclemom]

And Ms24k and anyone else who feels it necessary? Please use the on me any time you like

"Beat me ... whip me ... make me sign bad checks ..."

Mermaid you're such a tease ...

 

[mermaid]

"Beat me ... whip me ... make me sign bad checks ..."

Mermaid you're such a tease ...

 

[scorpiogirl]

I thought I would be able to perform a "Body for Life Challenge" miracle in the twelve weeks I've been logging. Um, no and I have great respect for people who do. I've just taken "baby steps" to a new level. And that's OK too because it's a life change I'm going through.

We all have to move at our own pace. Life is different for all of us. If you feel quilty, just try to push a little harder. How's the cardio and weight training coming since surgery?

 

[indyswife]

Hey mermaid, I love reading your logs. You are an ispiration and your stories make me smile. Keep it up and dont leave out the details!!

 

[skychick]

Mermaid,

I'd also like to add that whenever I hop on over to your log I smile. I love how your personality shines through. Food and exercise aren't necessarily disconnected from the rest of your life..it's all tied together. I think it's great how you talk about how stuff going on in your life affects the choices you make in regards to your health.

 

[velvett]

I force myself to be so unemotional at work (to gain the respect) that I turn to jello when I come home.

I'm just the same way...

 

[scorpiogirl]

Hey Mermaid, you OK? It's unlike you not to post for a whole day!

 

[mermaid]

I'm OK, just was too tired to post last night

Saturday 3 December

8.00am Gym
25 mins HIIT on treadmill
~270 cals burned

It was HARD.

500ml water

9.30am
Homemade oatmeal pancakes
1/4 cup blueberries
1 cup egg whites scrambled
500ml water
multi, zinc, flax, 1 Sesamax, 2 Levorex

Shopping, ran errands etc, in 100 degree heat. Ugh. Not doing well with water intake but will HAVE to now that the temp is constantly up there.

750ml water

1.00pm
4oz roast chicken breast, no skin
1 tbsp cranberry sauce
1/2 avocado
350ml water
1 Sesamax, 2 Levorex

4.00pm
1/2 cup cottage cheese
1 tbsp almond butter

3 Glucorell-r

7.30pm
4oz beef fillet
1 medium baked potato
1 tbsp light sour cream
1 tomato
1 cup mushrooms grilled w/ olive oil

2 Sesamax, 2 Levorex
500ml water

1596 cals P:34 C:27 F:39 Fiber:17g

I was exhausted by the end of the day but I'm a bit more motivated so I know it will get better. Thanks ladies for helping me keep with the program

 

[mermaid]

Sunday 4 December

8.00am Gym
30 mins steady state cardio - on treadmill
~215 cals burned

9.30am
Homemade oatmeal pancakes - made them again as P tried them yesterday and loved them. I was pleasantly surprised - this will end up being a weekend staple.
1/4 cup blueberries
1 tbsp almond butter
2/3 cup egg whites scrambled
Multi, zinc, flax, sesamax, 2 levorex
750ml water

A larger meal than normal but was starving.

12.00pm
1 cup cottage cheese
1 tbsp cranberry sauce - got a taste for it lately
500ml water

3.00pm
4oz chicken breast
1 tbsp cranberry sauce
500ml water

3.30pm
1 1/2 cups chocolate ice cream - oops - on an impulse
Then quickly took 2 Glucorell-R and 2 Sesamax, 2 levorex
500ml water

7.30pm
4oz beef fillet
1/2 cup asparagus
1 Sesamax, 2 Levorex

1 liter water

1600 cals P:38 C:35 F:27 Fiber:10g

Had intended to go back to the gym this afternoon but the heat and malaise took over (hence the ice cream treat). So P and I will drag each other's a$$es tomorrow night for my first lifting session in a few weeks. Oh, this is gonna hurt.

 

[iceprincess]

Sunday 4 December

Had intended to go back to the gym this afternoon but the heat and malaise took over (hence the ice cream treat). So P and I will drag each other's a$$es tomorrow night for my first lifting session in a few weeks. Oh, this is gonna hurt.

Best of luck tomorrow at the gym, it will feel good to be back lifting I am sure!! Let's hope the hurt will be a GOOD hurt!!

 

[Roonytunes]

Shopping, ran errands etc, in 100 degree heat. Ugh. Not doing well with water intake but will HAVE to now that the temp is constantly up there.

We just got our first snow fall here yesterday. It was light, but I am so not a fan of winter. Believe it or not, 100 degree heat actually sounds good to me right now!!

 

[mermaid]

Monday December 5

Welcome to the week, everyone!

6.30am
6 whites, 1 yolk scrambled

Large cup coffee, splash milk
500ml water

9.30am
2 slices wholemeal fruit nut bread, toasted
1/4 cup ricotta cheese
1 tbsp honey
1 green tea

250ml water

12.30pm Took colleague out for lunch
Restaurant actually made my request:
Egg white omelette w/
feta, rocket, sundried tomatoes
Beetroot, celery & carrot juice
350ml water

5.00pm
Protein bar
250ml water

6.00pm Gym
Upper body workout (to ease in gently)
Incline DB press
Lat pulldown
Military press
Low rows
Abs - forward and reverse crunches

7.30pm
1 cup cottage cheese
1 tbsp cranberry sauce
1 serve protein powder mixed into:
3/4 cup plain FF yogurt
1/2 tbsp almond butter

1 liter water
multi, flax, zinc, sesamax, levorex

1540 cals P:43 C:28 F:29 Fiber:10g

It was SO hot. Lacking in water, not enough fiber, need to add more veggies.
The gym was harder than I thought so I will not over do it for the first week or so - it feels like I haven't been in months!

 

[scorpiogirl]

The gym was harder than I thought so I will not over do it for the first week or so - it feels like I haven't been in months!

Ahhhh, didn't those endorphins kick in!!!! Back on track!

 

[*Bunny*]

The gym was harder than I thought so I will not over do it for the first week or so - it feels like I haven't been in months!

I can relate in the way of trying "not to over do it" ...

I've had a bit of the opposite effect, jumped right back in and wanted more more more.

I literally have to check myself often, decrease the weight and then force myself to leave the gym, after starting back up as of late.

I'm sure it will fade as time contraints always pop up ... and soon to be more snow

 

[scorpiogirl]

Hellllooooooo......M???? Where you hiding?!?!

 

[mermaid]

Hellllooooooo......M???? Where you hiding?!?!

LOL! I love that you're cracking that whip on me, awesome SG

It was a good day.

Tuesday 6 December

6.30am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, scrambled w/ 1 whole egg

1 liter water

10.00am
1 cup bug meat (Moreton Bay Bugs - a bit like a lobster - in season now)
1/2 avocado
500ml water

12.30pm
3oz beef fillet
1/2 cup vegetarian no sugar baked beans
2 slices Performax bread

1 liter water

3.30pm
1oz cashews
500ml water

6.30pm
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup milk

7.30pm Gym
6 sets DB lunges
Seated leg Press
20 mins treadmill 15% @ 2.5mph squeezing glutes all the way

8.30pm
Protein shake
500ml water
multi, flax, zinc, 2 sesamax, 2 levorex

1524 cals P:40 C:29 F:31 Fiber:35g - Oh yeah now we're talking

 

[mermaid]

Wednesday 7 December

My goal was to hit 149 by today. I weighed myself - I'm still 152. Seeing that I've only just got motivated again, I'm hardly surprised. So, I'll try again.

P's alarm went off at 5am and he dragged me to the gym. I know that early AM cardio works but bugger me, I hate mornings.

*note to self - re read sig on change - often, until it's imprinted in brain*


5.30am Gym
20 mins HIIT on bike - 2 min intervals, 1 min sprint
Stretching
It was hard - I hurt.
600ml water

6.45am
Very excited as found a store that sells packaged natural egg whites - no more egg cracking for me!
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg

1 large coffee, splash milk. I need it today.
500ml water
2 levorex, 1 sesamax

 

[mermaid]

Wednesday 7 December

My goal was to hit 149 by today. I weighed myself - I'm still 152. Seeing that I've only just got motivated again, I'm hardly surprised. So, I'll try again.

P's alarm went off at 5am and he dragged me to the gym. I know that early AM cardio works but bugger me, I hate mornings.

*note to self - re read sig on change - often, until it's imprinted in brain*


5.30am Gym
20 mins HIIT on bike - 2 min intervals, 1 min sprint
Stretching
It was hard - I hurt.
600ml water

6.45am
Very excited as found a store that sells packaged natural egg whites - no more egg cracking for me!
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg

1 large coffee, splash milk. I need it today.
500ml water
2 levorex, 1 sesamax

10.30am
1 cup cottage cheese
1 cup fresh strawberries
1 tbsp almond butter

1.00pm
3oz chicken breast
1/2 cup no sugar vegetarian baked beans
500ml water

4.00pm
2 slices Performax bread
Started to eat some salmon but it was off. Ugh - need to be more vigilant in this hot weather.

Didn't leave work until 7.00pm - it was a busy day with the CEO in town. I think he's sharpening the hatchet. Not going to the gym again tonight although it was planned. Want an early night so I can go in the morning

8.00pm
4oz chicken breast
1/2 avocado
1 liter water
multi, flax, zinc, 2 sesamax, 2 levorex

1419 cals P:44 C:26 F:30 Fiber: 31g

 

[scorpiogirl]

1524 cals P:40 C:29 F:31 Fiber:35g - Oh yeah now we're talking

Lookin' good!

1419 cals P:44 C:26 F:30 Fiber: 31g

STILL lookin' good!!!


Thaaat's more like it!!

 

[mermaid]

Thursday 8 December

5.15am Gym
25 mins HIIT - treadmill
Stretching
500ml water

6.30am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled

500ml water
1 large coffee, splash milk

10.00am
Protein Bar
500ml water

12.45pm
2 slices performax bread
500ml water

 

[Roonytunes]

Looks like your day is off to an excellent start....way to go on getting to the gym so early this morning!!

 

[mermaid]

Looks like your day is off to an excellent start....way to go on getting to the gym so early this morning!!

Hey lady!!

I will endeavour to keep it up.

Thanks for the

 

[musclemom]

Man, I LIVE in my gym and won't go near nuthin' until 9:00 a.m.

5:30 ... god you're hard core!!!

 

[mermaid]

5:30 ... god you're hard core!!!

Yeah, for TODAY!! It's not a consistent thing, LOL.

I've been on this board a lot today - I just can't concentrate on work.

 

[musclemom]

I've been on this board a lot today - I just can't concentrate on work.

Story of my life, darlin!

It's a real magnet when you work from home and are doing a job you don't like too much !!!

 

[mermaid]

Thursday 8 December

5.15am Gym
25 mins HIIT - treadmill
Stretching
500ml water

6.30am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled

500ml water
1 large coffee, splash milk

10.00am
Protein Bar
500ml water

12.45pm
2 slices performax bread
500ml water

Dry bread on its own really didn't cut it.

2.45pm
1 1/4 cup cottage cheese
1 cup fresh strawberries
1 tbsp almond butter
500ml water
1 large coffee, splash milk

6.00pm Gym
DB Bicep Curl
DB Overhead French Press
DB Hammer Curl
Barbell Curl
Tricep Pushdown - cable machine
Abs - forward/reverse crunches

I would be grateful for any ideas on how to make an arm workout more exciting - absolutely not my favourite.

7.00pm Waaaay too long between meals, I know
4oz grilled chicken breast
1/2 avocado
1/3 cup cottage cheese
1 tbsp taco sauce
1 liter water
multi, flax, zinc, 2 sesamax, 2 levorex

1440 cals P:44 C:23 F:33 Fiber:26g

 

[iceprincess]

I admire you for getting to the gym that early...what time do you have to get up to make it there by 5:15 AM!! My body just doesn't function well in the gym that early! Macros are looking good, nice protein intake! Keep up the good work girl

What time zone are you in...reason why I ask is I am in the middle of my Dec. 8th which is ahead of the US and you seem to be finished with your day already!! Just curious

 

[mermaid]

I admire you for getting to the gym that early...what time do you have to get up to make it there by 5:15 AM!!

What time zone are you in...reason why I ask is I am in the middle of my Dec. 8th which is ahead of the US and you seem to be finished with your day already!! Just curious

I'm living in Australia - I spent 7 years in the US where I met my Australian husband - we moved back to his homeland just over a year ago. I know, it's strange - I've finished my day before the US even starts - you must be in the middle!

Getting up so early is new and difficult. Fortunately I live only 5 mins drive away from the gym so the alarm goes off at 5am, pull on some clothes and away I go. Going to put in more of an effort to do this. And like I said, reading your journal and the other logs on this board and the feedback from the girls, helps to push me in the right direction

 

[mermaid]

Friday 9 December

I'm on a roll and feeling good - largely thanks to you ladies

5.30am Gym
25 mins steady state cardio - treadmill - 4mph @ 9%
500ml water

6.30am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled

500ml water

9.30am
Protein bar
500ml water

 

[musclemom]

Friday 9 December

I'm on a roll and feeling good - largely thanks to you ladies

I'm GENUINELY happy girl!!! As my son likes to say, kick a** and take names!!!!

Extra bonus for you, you're nearly into the weekend, most of us still have another day to go!

Now if I can just get myself motivated ... maybe I can pull the old "I'll just do a short one," trick again ...

 

[iceprincess]

I'm living in Australia - I spent 7 years in the US where I met my Australian husband - we moved back to his homeland just over a year ago. I know, it's strange - I've finished my day before the US even starts - you must be in the middle!

Getting up so early is new and difficult. Fortunately I live only 5 mins drive away from the gym so the alarm goes off at 5am, pull on some clothes and away I go. Going to put in more of an effort to do this. And like I said, reading your journal and the other logs on this board and the feedback from the girls, helps to push me in the right direction

Makes sense now!! Keep up the good work and like I said before, I admire you for getting up and into the gym so early! Got to love those feel good, on a roll times...grasp them and run!!

 

[mermaid]

Friday 9 December

I'm on a roll and feeling good - largely thanks to you ladies

5.30am Gym
25 mins steady state cardio - treadmill - 4mph @ 9%
500ml water

6.30am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled

500ml water

9.30am
Protein bar
500ml water

1.00pm Took a new manager out for lunch
Flour tortilla w/
about 3oz grilled chicken breast
1/2 cup eggplant
1/2 cup spinach
1 tbsp sour cream and green salsa
1 cappucino

3.30pm Oh this is bad
2 pieces chocolate covered chocolate fudge
500ml water

7.00pm
4oz grilled chicken breast
1 1/2 cups mixed cauliflower/broccoli - ugh, forced it down
1/3 cup cottage cheese w/
1 tbsp almond butter
1 tsp cherry jam

1 liter water
multi, flax, zinc, 2 sesamax, 2 levorex

Forgot supps at work this week. Not enough water. But it's Friday night and I've not had any wine/vodka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Saving that for dinner out tomorrow.

~1550 cals P:41 C:31 F:28 Fiber:14g

 

[scorpiogirl]

You mentioned making the arm workout more exciting....well, I don't know if it's exciting but have you tried preacher curls or doing some cable curls to add a little variety? ....or one of my faves is db incline curls. Tilt the back of the bench at a 45 angle and let your arms (db's in hands) hang straight to the floor, turn your palms out and do your curls. Elbows pointed to the floor at all times. Head flat to the bench at all times. I LOVE those things!!

 

[mermaid]

Thanks SG, I'll try those

Saturday 10 December

Scheduled day off gym and cheat day.

8.30am
Oatmeal protein pancakes
1 tbsp almond butter
1/4 cup blueberries

Went to work - stock taking

12.30pm At local bar
Poached chicken w/smoked salmon
Had the sauce on the side so just dipped fork
About 1 cup fries
1 liter water

5.00pm
A friend came over and we went out for dinner, cocktails and dancing. Went to a Japanese restaurant - the food was fantastic, it's just at the end of our street so will become our weekly cheat except it's not that bad when you eat sashimi and shabu shabu.
8 pieces tuna and salmon sashimi
3 pieces mixed sushi
Chicken/beef shabu shabu
3 small sake

Went to the casino - danced for over an hour - I haven't done that for months! It felt good. Also had many vodka cocktails

Then it all went pear shaped. On leaving the casino and minding our own business I hasten to add, a group of young drunk guys were hounding us, calling me names, obviously out for trouble. They threw the first punch and P ended up quite badly beaten but then that's easy when there's 3 of them and only 1 of him. I tried to break it up but didn't help much.

I now remember why I don't go to these kind of places anymore. Too many f**kwits around who can't handle the alcohol. I hate meaningless violence and unfortunately you experience it often when going out on the town now. God, I sound just like my mother.


Sunday 11 December

I spent the day cleaning wounds and washing blood out of clothes. I felt so upset and sick that I just couldn't eat. I ended up having eggs on toast about 6pm and that was it.

No gym.

I don't know why I put my whole life in this log. Therapy, I guess.

 

[Roonytunes]

Oh no, Mermaid, that SUCKS!! SO sorry that you and P had to deal with all that unnecessary violance this weekend. It sounded like your weekend was going so well and you were enjoying yourself until you ran into those drunk idiots...is that really so common where you live? I've only very rarely seen the occasional bar brawl here.

In any case, I hope you feel better

 

[mermaid]

..is that really so common where you live?

Thanks RT .

You know, for some reason the English are the worst with this kind of thing and Australians aren't too far behind. A lot of them are just a bunch of angry people when fuelled with alcohol - you may have heard about the soccer and race riots on the news over the past few years. Actually, only last night there were violent race riots south of Sydney.

I must admit, I didn't experience brawling in the US at all in the time I lived there.

But I guess there is some kind of violence wherever you go

 

[mermaid]

Monday 12 December

Needed to help P this morning so will go to the gym tonight.

6.30am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled

1 large cup coffee, splash milk

Still not hungry but forcing it down:

10.30am
1/2 cup cottage cheese
1 tbsp almond butter
500ml water

 

[buffalogal]

Sorry you had such an awful weekend mermaid. I hope P is starting to feel better!!

I can't stand drunk a**holes, especially young ones with attitudes. Feel better hun...

 

[nelmsjer]

Mermaid, your story about P just makes me sick...and angry. I'm REALLY sorry this happened and want to encourage you to keep your head up. You've had a lot of stuff going on, so it's even more important now to stay positive and continue to focus on your goals, time with P, and the truly important things in life. Life throws obstacles in our way, sometimes, and it is those that come out stronger and wiser that continue to be happy and succeed. You and your journal have a greater effect on people's lives than you realize, so strive forward with hope and confidence...things WILL get better.

Gosh, that sounded cheesy, but it is sincere and from the heart. to you and P.

 

[iceprincess]

I am SOOO sorry to hear about your weekend...that is horrible and it makes me so mad. I know it is hard but try and keep your head up, take care of your husband and stay focus on your goals and values.

Good job on making yourself eat, even though I know how hard that can be sometimes. I hope you were able to make it to the gym tonight and were able to get out some aggression there. I have found the gym to be one of my favorite places when I am mad, angry, upset, mad, etc. It helps me clear my mind and get refocused again!

Again, I am so sorry...Take care mermaid and know that you and P are in my thoughts this week!

 

[mermaid]

Monday 12 December

Needed to help P this morning so will go to the gym tonight.

6.30am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled

1 large cup coffee, splash milk

Still not hungry but forcing it down:

10.30am
1/2 cup cottage cheese
1 tbsp almond butter
500ml water

1.30pm
1 WW tortilla
1 cup grilled chicken
1/2 cup spinach
1/2 cup eggplant
1 tbsp sour cream and salsa
500ml water

4.00pm
1 individual cherry pie - a colleague bought it for me for afternoon tea to cheer me up - I felt too bad to say no.
1 large green tea

6.00pm Gym
DB incline chest press
Machine chest press
DB Pullovers
Lat pulldown
Supported row
Stretching

Good workout

7.00pm
1 cup cottage cheese
1/2 tbsp almond butter
1 liter water
multi, flax, zinc, 2 sesamax

Must remember supps tomorrow

1574cals P:39 C:32 F:29 Fiber:18g

Thanks everyone for your kind words, I really appreciate it

 

[scorpiogirl]

Then it all went pear shaped. On leaving the casino and minding our own business I hasten to add, a group of young drunk guys were hounding us, calling me names, obviously out for trouble. They threw the first punch and P ended up quite badly beaten but then that's easy when there's 3 of them and only 1 of him. I tried to break it up but didn't help much.

OH MY GOD, MERMAID!!!!!! I'm SO SORRY! :BIG HUGS: I wish I could comfort you more! Please let P know I'm thinking of him and I hope he feels better fast!

You know......I just don't understand why people have to be so insecure and ignorant.


I'm sooooo sorry!

 

[mermaid]

Thanks SG. P is doing much better today.

Tuesday 13 December

5.30am Gym
25 mins HIIT - treadmill
Abs - forward/reverse crunches
Stretching
500ml water

6.45am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled

9.30am
1 cup cottage cheese
1 large coffee, splash milk
500ml water

1.00pm
1 medium WW tortilla
1/2 cup chicken
1 cup ratatouille
1 slice cheddar
500ml water

1 liter water

Missed meal

6.30pm
4oz roast chicken
1 tbsp cranberry sauce
1 1/2 slices Performax bread
1 tbsp almond butter
500ml water
multi, flax, zinc, sesamax, levorex

Hell, missed supps, missed meal, too many carbs in evening.

1395 cals P:43 C:27 F:30 Fiber:18g

 

[iceprincess]

Hell, missed supps, missed meal, too many carbs in evening.

Your doing good Mermaid...just keep plugging away and don't beat yourself up so much if you make a mistake! Just get back on the wagon and start again the next day

 

[scorpiogirl]

You've just lost your balance a bit due to a situation beyond your control. It'll be ok, looks like your jumping right back on. I'm glad P is feeling better.

 

[mermaid]

Wednesday 14 December

5.30am Gym
I tried to do a leg workout. Realise that I can not lift a stick without eating first. Mmmm. Will have to keep weights to the evening. That will be hard in the next few days as I have a couple of evening business meetings to attend so I'll be in cardio overload until the weekend.

25 mins steady state - treadmill - 15% @ 2.8mph - squeeze those glutes!
500ml water

6.45am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled

1 large coffee, splash milk
1 large green tea

10.30am
1 Protein shake
500ml water
multi, zinc, flax, sesamax, levorex

1.30pm
1 cup cottage cheese
1 tbsp almond butter
500ml water

 

[mermaid]

Ever felt like you just want to take a day off from life?

Things have a got a little on top of me the past day or so. I'm just not eating properly and I am so tired. No biggie, I just need to weekend to recouperate. Actually I'm going to take Friday off work and get back into it.

So I'm not going to log until then; I'll still be reading though - can't get through the day without my EF fix.

 

[Roonytunes]

Ever felt like you just want to take a day off from life?

YES!!! I know what you mean and I hope you feel better soon, Mermaid.

It's a wise move to take a day off from work and give yourself the mental rest. I love reading your log, so I hope you'll be back soon.

 

[iceprincess]

Ever felt like you just want to take a day off from life?

I think we have ALL felt that way at one time or another! Hang in there Mermaid...I think a day off from work will do you some good!

Just take these few days off from logging, clear your head and then jump right back on the band wagon!

 

[scorpiogirl]

I know what you mean! I've been so stressed with things and I'm sooooo damn tired and burned out!!! I'm eating well, but haven't trained in 3 days. I'm right there with ya'!!!!!!

 

[buffalogal]

Hope you're day off revitalizes you! Between your surgery and the incident this past week, you're entitled to a couple of days off! Enjoy...

 

[Afgrl]

Keep your head up, sounds like you could use some time off, don't worry everything will get better soon enough. Relax, and take care. Enjoy your time off.

 

[mermaid]

OK, done with the pity party.

P is better, much recovered. My boss was on site all week so could not take Friday off so have just vegged out all weekend. So hot - I read enviously about shovelling snow.

Relaxed the diet and now, three days later, I feel like crap. I hate sugar - it's the devil

And I miss the gym - or actually just getting some kind of buzz from activity. This is so weird - I am changing, slowly but still.

But mostly I miss logging.

Back on it tomorrow morning, 5am

 

[iceprincess]

YEAH!!! Mermaid is back and ready to kick some butt! Isn't it a great feeling to know that you are completely changing your lifestyle!

Glad to hear that P is doing better.

 

[amore]

OK, done with the pity party.

So hot - I read enviously about shovelling snow.

Relaxed the diet and now, three days later, I feel like crap. I hate sugar - it's the devil
And I miss the gym - or actually just getting some kind of buzz from activity. This is so weird - I am changing, slowly but still.

But mostly I miss logging.

Back on it tomorrow morning, 5am

LOL! You hate sugar, haha!! Yes it is the devil LOL when misused. Some sugar is nice though - like from blueberries - nice taste and you get plenty of super healthy antioxidants! Or grapes!! Yes, I don't think those kinds of sugars are complex, but well, better than ice cream type of sugar, LOL.

Go girl!! You'll make it happen!!!!!!

 

[buffalogal]

Welcome back Mermaid! No more sugar for you...

 

[mermaid]

Monday 19 December

5.30am
40 mins steady state power walk outside - a cooler beautiful morning

6.30am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled
multi, flax, zinc, 2 Levorex, 1 Sesapure

10.00am
1 cup cottage cheese
1 cup fresh strawberries
1 tbsp almond butter

1.00pm
3oz sardines w/ tomato
2 slices Performax bread
2 Levorex, 1 Sesapure

4.30pm
1 Lo carb protein shake

7.30pm
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg omelette w/
2 tbsp grated parmesan
1/2 cup sliced mushrooms
2 Levorex, 1 Sesapure

3 liters water
2 large coffee, splash milk

1453 cals
P:50
C:21
F:29
Fiber:25g

 

[Roonytunes]

Love the new avi...what an adorable mermaid! Just like you, no doubt!

 

[scorpiogirl]

OOOoooohhhhhh, lookin' good! Love the avi!!!

 

[iceprincess]

GREAT JOB!! Keep it up girl.

AND...just like everyone else has mentioned, I love your new avi. It is VERY CUTE!!

 

[mermaid]

Tuesday 20 December

6.30am
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg as omelette w/
2 tbsp parmesan
2 slices Performax bread
multi, flax, zinc, 2 Levorex, 1 Sesapure

10.00am
1 cup cottage cheese
1 cup fresh strawberries
1 tbsp almond butter

Missed meal due to overextended meeting

3.30pm
Was offered a cookie, put it in my mouth, thought about it for a second and spit it out.
I am a sad person. Why can't I think about it BEFORE raising hand to mouth?

1 cup cottage cheese mixed w/
3/4 cup organic oat muesli w/ dates and almonds (yuck - and waaay too high in carbs; not doing that again)
2 Levorex, 1 Sesamax

Ran around after work - Christmas errands and such

8.00pm
4oz chicken breast
1/2 avocado
1 cup asparagus
1 broccolini spear
2 Levorex, 1 Sesamax

2 1/2 liters water
1 large coffee, splash milk

1466 cals
P:43
C:26
F:31
Fiber: 24g

 

[buffalogal]

3.30pm
Was offered a cookie, put it in my mouth, thought about it for a second and spit it out.
I am a sad person. Why can't I think about it BEFORE raising hand to mouth?

Woo-hoo Girl!! I think you're reaching that turning point now! Keep it up. Next time you probably won't even put it in your mouth.

Just remember, small steps are the only way you're going to get there. The fact that you spit it out is actually a big step. Most people wouldn't do that. You're kickin' butt!!

 

[scorpiogirl]

3.30pm
Was offered a cookie, put it in my mouth, thought about it for a second and spit it out. I am a sad person. Why can't I think about it BEFORE raising
hand to mouth?

That's usin' your noodle!!!! Great job!

No you are not a sad person....it's just that some old habbits die hard. Big pat on the back for you!!!

 

[amore]

About the cookie, awesome job!! I was at Barnes and Noble today and went to look at those little cookie things in the jars they have on the counter and the second i saw 150 cals for that little thing, i dropped it back into the jar as if it was a bug in my hand or something. HAHA!! it was funny!! ! i wonder what the people thought that witnessed it!! then i get asked to lunch tomorrow and i resisted b/c i count my food precisely LOL!

Good job Mermaid!!! ;-))

 

[mermaid]

Wednesday 21 December

5.30am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites. 1 whole egg scrambled
multi, flax, zinc, 2 Levorex, 1 Sesapure

9.30am
1 cup cottage cheese
1 cup fresh strawberries
1 tbsp almond butter

1.00pm
1 cup shredded chicken breast
2 slices Performax bread
1/2 avocado
2 Levorex, 1 Sesamax

4.30pm
Lo carb Protein Shake

8.30pm Got home from work - busy day - Pre-Christmas panic - 3 hour conference call from boss - I think he must like me
1 cup shredded chicken
1 cup broccoli (ugh)
2 Levorex, 1 Sesamax

3 liters water
2 large coffee, splash milk

1618 cals
P:49
C:19
F:32
Fiber: 33g

This is a very busy week w/ work BUT I have 10 days off from 12/23. WOO HOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Have to go to the Outback (and no, not the restaurant because that would be pleasant - no the REAL Outback, cattle, flies, horses and sh!t) w/ the outlaws for Christmas Day but then....sort my frickin' life out.

 

[scorpiogirl]

the REAL Outback, cattle, flies, horses and sh!t) w/ the outlaws for Christmas Day but then....sort my frickin' life out.

Ha, ha, ha! You KNOW we were all thinkin' Outback Steakhouse!!!!

Outlaws, huh? Sounds fun!

You seem to have a pretty nice life....other than that boss of yours - you really think he's got a crush on you?!?!?!

 

[buffalogal]

Ha, ha, ha! You KNOW we were all thinkin' Outback Steakhouse!!!!

Mmmmm, a nice big, bloody, juicy 20 oz steak sure would hit the spot right now...

 

[mermaid]

You seem to have a pretty nice life....other than that boss of yours - you really think he's got a crush on you?!?!?!

Oh no, I used the wrong smilie. I was being sarcastic. He makes me jump through many hoops. We spend so much time meeting/talking etc, it would be good if he showed me some kind of respect but that doesn't happen. He thinks I should be barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen "like all women should be". Mysoginistic is a strong word but he's close.

Nearly all of Australia stops for Christmas and New Year and there is a mandatory shutdown at our factory, hence the 10 day break. We have much more vacation here than in the US.

Do I have a nice life? It's funny, when you're on the inside it never seems so good but on reflection things could be much much worse. Still, while contemplating this right now, it hasn't helped my self esteem much. I'm on a bit of a downer though I must admit coming off BCP after my surgery has had a major effect on my hormones and I do not feel normal at all.

OK too much info again.

Not a good day in terms of my plan, but I'll post that up later tonight.

 

[mermaid]

Thursday 22 December

6.00am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled
multi, flax, zinc, 2 Levorex, 1 Sesamax

All day meeting w/ direct boss and other Finance boss. Lunch brought in and I ate because I did not bring own food.

Fail to plan, plan to fail

12.00pm Eek!
1 french bread stick loaf
About 3oz prosciutto
2 wedge camembert

5.00pm
1 Lo carb protein shake

They finally left at 6.30pm

8.30pm
6oz lean beef steak
1 cup asparagus
2 Levorex, 1 Sesamax

Only 1 1/2 liters water
1 large coffee, splash milk
1 large black tea

1752 cals
P:38
C:28
F:33
Fiber: 21g

I am a loser.

 

[Karmic Pendulum]

Thursday 22 December

6.00am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup FF milk
1 cup whites, 1 whole egg scrambled
multi, flax, zinc, 2 Levorex, 1 Sesamax

All day meeting w/ direct boss and other Finance boss. Lunch brought in and I ate because I did not bring own food.

Fail to plan, plan to fail

12.00pm Eek!
1 french bread stick loaf
About 3oz prosciutto
2 wedge camembert

5.00pm
1 Lo carb protein shake

They finally left at 6.30pm

8.30pm
6oz lean beef steak
1 cup asparagus
2 Levorex, 1 Sesamax

Only 1 1/2 liters water
1 large coffee, splash milk
1 large black tea

1752 cals
P:38
C:28
F:33
Fiber: 21g

I am a loser.

lol...way to go. Now you sound like me

 

[iceprincess]

I am a loser.

You are NOT a loser. I don't want to hear you say that again!! If you are going to create a positive habit you must FIRST think positively NOT negatively. SO, you had a bad day...SO WHAT, we all have them. You are a very strong woman...wipe off the dust and get right back on that Horse!! We ALL believe in you...you just need to learn to believe in yourself!!

Love you girl!!!

 

[nelmsjer]

Mermaid!!!

There is no negativity allowed in this thread, especially directed toward yourself. The subconscious mind grabs onto that statement and believes it!

Now go and look in the mirror and say 20 times, "I'm a winner, I'm powerful, and it is easy for me to reach my goals!" with a BIG smile on your face!

 

[buffalogal]

Mermaid, you started this log back on September 11th - over 12 weeks ago and you're still logging! Look at how much you've learned about yourself, body, etc since you started. You've done more and stuck it out more than 99% of the population ever would have. No way in hell that you're a loser!! Especially considering the fact that you had one bad meal. Do you have any idea how many other people would have given up the rest of the day?? Looks like you got right back on track for the next meal- great job!