This is my first reply here and I lovethe sight just to let you know. This post lead me to register to the site because I myself have just gotten out of around a 4 year relationship with a girl that I supported through college. It has been the hardest thing in my life and I still cry to this day occasionally, but not as bad as it used to be. Time heals all.
Its even worse when the girl runs away like mine did. She rode my coat tails and got out. To feel used and to get dumped hurts more than anything. It makes you question yourself, your body, you actions and emotions. It makes you ask "what was wrong you?"
Some much more to say and ask, but here is the good thing about it. It made me re-examine myself, healed alot of realtionships and problems with my family and my dad in which I hadn't talked to in 13 years, and in the two months and one week I have gone from around 300 pounds to 249.
Work on yourself, yourself, yourself, and let her worry about herself. Silence is Golden. If she knows you are going to be there and are still there then she is going to string you on. And try to replace and move on. So many people out there, lonely and wanting to be with some one like us. Just be happy that you weren't married and with kids. I know that it doesn't make the pain go away just yet, but it gets better everyday and you will have your good days and your bad, your good minutes and then all of the sudden, BAM, pain, loathing, longing.
Will write more later(could write a book) but I need to go train and do my cardio. Stay tough.
