I need your help....Im ashamed....addicted to drugs, now back in the gym

[Sadist]

I think you are starting on the right track bro. My old man died of an accidental overdose and was addicted as far back as I can remember. So many uncles, grandparents and friends lived that life. I never lost it all and I never came to the point that I admiited I was addicted, but everything is going so good for me now, the past 5 years really I am paranoid of going down that road. I'm afraid to even drink or take drugs these days. So let me play the devil's advocate here. Do you think turning to drugs to make you happy again is really the answer. I mean you, me and everyone else that has an addictive personality will be like this for the rest of our lives. If you start doing one drug again, what will be next, G?clen?T3?GH? Heavy questions to ask yourself bro. Good luck what ever you decide, there will always be people here to give you a good word.

 

[pgerardone]

Welcome back HardCore. Would like to see you get into a tad better condition before you hit the gear. Your cardio system needs work, your muscles are in a weakened state, your ligaments and tendones need time to get back up to speed as well. And I'm probabley leaving out a dozen other things. Doing gear too soon is a mistake in my book. But I'm not really telling you anything you don't or haven't thought about. In the end it is always a personal decison, you have the means and know where to go... it's your call.

I disagree with this. By using steroids hardcore would actually be using them for the reason the were developed in the first place. To re-gain weight lost because of an illness. In my case steroids helped so much both physically and mentally. They got me back to a point where my confidence started to return and I felt good about myself. That in itself helped me stay clean. I do not think you should jump right into a huge cycle using a ton of different drugs. But something like 500mgs of test a week plus getting back in the gym and eating right could work wonders. I have to say that without the gym I would still be addicted to pain pills.

 

[Maxx Out]

I disagree with this. By using steroids hardcore would actually be using them for the reason the were developed in the first place. To re-gain weight lost because of an illness. In my case steroids helped so much both physically and mentally. They got me back to a point where my confidence started to return and I felt good about myself. That in itself helped me stay clean. I do not think you should jump right into a huge cycle using a ton of different drugs. But something like 500mgs of test a week plus getting back in the gym and eating right could work wonders. I have to say that without the gym I would still be addicted to pain pills.

I agree 100% pgerardone! Good words!

Maxx >>>>>

 

[eric88]

Just remember your muscles have very good memory. You can get back up to weight very quickly. Id say with 3 months of good eating and lifing you would be back to around 200lbs.

I would not take any more drugs for at least 6 months. my bro just went through the same exact thing only he is 165lbs and not in good shape. He went straight to gear though but you do what you want, its your life.

Good luck with everything.

 

[GUNDY]

Dude,

I usually don't post here too much but your thread got to me. I wish I was like you guys. I freakin go up in weight when shit like this happens. I got up to 350lbs. I am finally under 300 now and that is with a shitload of muscle again.

I would have to say this... If you are fairly young, I might wait a little on the cycle. If you are nearing your 30's but all means do it. It gave me such a mental rush to get the pump and get that good feeling again ( you know what I mean!!). That helped alot.

peace.

 

[Hardcore4Evr]

Wow, i really appreciate all the kind words you guys have said. I really appreciate and thank you for this. I will be back to normal in no time. Its gonna be a long hard road, but i have been there before and i know if i put my mind to it then i will succeed. I will stay clean from any AAS until the end of January, and see how much mass i can put on naturally, and then i will start a small bulk cycle. Im looking forward to it. Thanks again guys.

 

[Lord_Suston]

Congrats that you are clean,

It takes a lot of will to quit, and I have seen friends go down the tubes on drugs. My best comment is this is a new life so don't be so hard on yourself. Start out slow and build momentum, I personally don't think there is a need for gear yet since you can improve very easily. Why submit yourself to more drugs, I mean your body has been abused pretty good let itself clean up. You will nee a good 6 months clean for your body to be in tip top condition, so live good lift hard and have a good time being yourself.....

 

[pgerardone]

I don't consider doing coke, pain pills, or whatever an illness. Substituting one drug for another is not the goal here - and it never should be. The essence of this situation is not physical. Staying clean, learning to regain control, re-forming the discipline WITHOUT drugs is more important in my experience. And in the long run, is much more valuable than getting that quick muscle fix.

This is by no means the first time I've dealt with this sort situation.

The state that a person is in after a long run with drugs is no different then the state a person is in after an illness. In my opinion steroids can help in that situation. It helped me, I know that. Subsistuting drugs in not a good idea but there is no comparision between steroids and drugs like coke. I had a productive life and I used steroid for years. I went to college, law school, held a job a girlfriend ect, ect while using steroids. However my life went to shit when I started getting high on nubain and pain pills.

 

[GaryWary]

I am going to say the opposite to what others have recommended.

DO A CYCLE NOW. It will be a good tonic. It will re-invigorate you and help motivate you in the gym. You could find you gain all of that 40lbs lost muscle in just one 8 week cycle. The roids will be your kickstart into training 'mostly' naturally again.

This is what I did after losing 25lbs due to depression/drug abuse. I gained it all back in 4 weeks using 250mg sust per 5 days and 20mg dbol per day.

I am now natural again (mostly) and I continue to train.

Just make sure the inner-policeman inside you monitors your potential for AS abuse... i.e. don't kid yourself that you can stay on them forever!! Just in case your addictive personality surfaces here....

 

[str8cubano]

I wouldn't do a cycle for a while - at least wait until your muscle memory kicks in and you start putting on some natural weight and you get your discipline back, remember Bro easy come easy go! Use some good supps like creatine and glutamine [protein goes without saying]! Don't train more than three times a week or more than one hour per session and don't worry about BF just eat until it hurts and get as much rest as you can especially until you get back into the swing of things - if you are as honest with yourself as you were in your post you will know from experience when your body is ready for a cycle!
Good luck and good gaining Bro and keep us posted whatever you decide to do!!!

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