2L2Q,
i ain't trying to flame, you've gotten enough of that already. and i don't know if someone's already said this cause i'm too lazy to read the whole post.
i have to admit that i get edgy and tend to be more forthright when i'm juicing. but that's a combination of a lot of things, but never usually a direct effect of the gear. i'd say with me it's because "i'm on gear" is always in the back of my head - and i tend to want to use that as a reason. also, i'll be getting bigger and getting stronger and people look at me differently, and i sometimes get more respect, and as a result i'd have that opening to take advantage of it and think i'll look cooler if i act like an animal or flare my eyes like i'm crazy.
BUT, i don't do any of the above because before i let it get to me and let myself take advantage of those openings to act stupid or "have roid rage," i stop myself and remember what's really causing it. not the gear, but the fact that deep down inside i want people to be scared of me and i want that respect; and these mental lapses in judgement or these excuses that i try to create give just give me that opening.
but i don't take advantage of them. because personally, i always have much more respect for the fucking huge guy who is the nicest guy in the world, because it's a hell of a lot easier to be an asshole and alot harder to act civil and proper and like a man. and i always fear the fucking huge guy who is the quiet guy and the nice guy.. because that's the motherfucker who deep down inside knows he can kick ass, it's the guy who walks around acting like a fucking asshole who i'm least afraid of, because i know he's a pussy... he's weak enough to let the gear get to his head and too immature to act like a man.
peace