Having to Live with Yourself.....

[H_T_]

a lot of you know i work with mentally ill people. i have a resource/support center i run. i had a staff member from one of the group homes introduce a new patient from their home, and when i look up, i see this kid that i used to bully from high school. bully is being used lightly. i pretty much abused this guy, took his lunches, embarrassed him at every turn, hit, trip, call names, etc. i remember challenging him to do 20 push ups at a party and he struggled the whole way and on his 20 rep, on the way up, i stepped on his back and spilled a beer on him.
so yeah, i was a bastard....and now seeing him made me feel like shit. knowing that he lost it and that i was part of it. you can say whatever you want, about how kids forget things, well, bullshit. if i can remember doing this stuff to him... kids that were bullied have memories of being bullied.
it was hard to approach him, i was fucking nervous. but he came into my office and introduced himself and then apologized for not doing it sooner. i told him that i knew who he was and that we went to HS together. he said he couldn't remember, then i started asking him about certain people and events and parties and stuff. he started to remember a lot of stuff. but then he looks at me and says: "I'm sorry i don't remember you HT." i felt like throwing up. still do. he tells me "I can't remember things because of (insert large #) ECT's." karma is a bitch.

 

[heatherrae]

Oh, that is sad. Perhaps he really doesn't remember you? If so, I guess that is a blessing not to remember some bad memories.

I think you have made up for the bad karma of being a bully by working with the mentally ill, for certain.

You know, the more that I get to know you, the more likable you seem. I knew you were funny but didn't really know that you had such a sensitive side.

Oh, but you still smell bad. hehehe.

 

[H_T_]

Oh, that is sad. Perhaps he really doesn't remember you? If so, I guess that is a blessing not to remember some bad memories.

I think you have made up for the bad karma of being a bully by working with the mentally ill, for certain.

You know, the more that I get to know you, the more likable you seem. I knew you were funny but didn't really know that you had such a sensitive side.

Oh, but you still smell bad. hehehe.

i smell like vagina right now. but Jesus Christ in Heaven, if he didn't just come up to me and tell me he just vomitted up blood! and i make 2 calls, to staff and emergency #'s and no answer! this is where i lose my temper with people. do you know how hard it is to keep someone calm when they just puked blood? i'm really still a bastard, btw. but thanks for smelling me.

 

[Gymgurl]

smelling you??? or talking to you???

HT...All you can do is tell someone that you are soo sorry you treated them bad. That is itself can make a huge difference. Just that you felt bad shows me that you are a good person.....Make amends and be his friend now.....okay go call 911

 

[heatherrae]

Yep, puking blood = 911 in my book.

and

You're welcome. I'll keep your BO in check.

 

[H_T_]

smelling you??? or talking to you???

HT...All you can do is tell someone that you are soo sorry you treated them bad. That is itself can make a huge difference. Just that you felt bad shows me that you are a good person.....Make amends and be his friend now.....okay go call 911

he's more concerned about the staff being upset with him and him losing his bed at that home. but i've seen this behavior before, he could just be utterly defeated, at heart. and sometimes, these guys will use thses tactics to feel you out. the next thing you know, they're calling you every name in the book and throwing shit at you......

 

[Gymgurl]

His BO????? lol he smells.....yummmmmy wait I ment stinky

 

[Spartacus]

I was one of those fucks who got bullied
to an extent,I fought back eventually
kicked this one prima donna punks ass in the locker room in front of the whole soccer team
I was a year older
he later went to college where I went
by then I had lost 60lbs and had been lifting
so I was sort of a BMOC at a campus with less than 1400 students
he wasn't shit at college
I left him alone

 

[heatherrae]

I was one of those fucks who got bullied
to an extent,I fought back eventually
kicked this one prima donna punks ass in the locker room in front of the whole soccer team
I was a year older
he later went to college where I went
by then I had lost 60lbs and had been lifting
so I was sort of a BMOC at a campus with less than 1400 students
he wasn't shit at college
I left him alone

I was usually the kid who stuck up for the other kids getting bullied, because I was very popular.

Then, I had to go to three different HS's and actually switched schools in the middle of my Senior year. I had a bully who was this HUGE girl. She bullied me because I was sort of known as the smartest kid in class. I beat the shit out of her in the middle of English class one day. Increased my rep immensely...lol. She had no idea that the little 5'3" cheerleader was so scrappy. hehehe.

 

[Spartacus]

I was usually the kid who stuck up for the other kids getting bullied, because I was very popular.

Then, I had to go to three different HS's and actually switched schools in the middle of my Senior year. I had a bully who was this HUGE girl. She bullied me because I was sort of known as the smartest kid in class. I beat the shit out of her in the middle of English class one day. Increased my rep immensely...lol. She had no idea that the little 5'3" cheerleader was so scrappy. hehehe.

I got moved into a very affluent high school down south for 9th grade
I was from the north
I didn't even know wtf auburn was