I love being off cycle, it feels good. don't have to worry about sides, getting gyno, taking a zillion pills and ancillaries. don't have to worry about my liver and pissing orange, about waking up de-hydrated...
i still go to the gym and feel a nice pump when i workout. am i as strong off? of course not. do i get those crazy pumps and veins showing as good off? nope. but i still feel great and enjoy it just as much.
not saying you are like this at all but a lot of guys who stay on have the ego thing going on where they always have to be breaking PR's and they always have to get a 2 inch pump in their bicep every workout. unless you are competing i really don't see the point.. not like people can't gain off cycle with the amazing supplements available. its important NOT to always be breaking PR's, gotta give the body a break from pushing all that weight.. the ligaments and tendons and soft tissues cannot handle that.