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[kiwee]

i woke up on the morning of 9/11 to loud banging on my bedroom window by my gf @ the time..i reluctantly walk to the door, let her in and ask, why she would be so inconsiderate as to wake me this early..she says i have to show you something, an proceeds to turn on the news..so i sit there, angry due to the rather rude awakening, to watch one of the most disturbing things i have ever seen..i comment that this pilot must be a fukin moron, to which she says they are going to fall..i say in astonishment, this cant be, theres no way and i refuse to believe this..and then..as she stated so..they began to crumble..i never felt this type of emotional pain, so far at that point in my life..i was speechless and void of anything even remotely related to my surroundings and current situations..i felt, instantly, and so abruptly, weak..nothing that the human body is capable of, could i have had energy to complete..i no longer looked forward to anything..there wasnt anything that seemed worth it after that sight..eventually, i went to work later that day, to see people, shop an converse like a regular day..i immediately felt ill..i wanted to physically, verbally and mentally destroy them..i felt anger and disgust like never before..i walked over to a fellow coworker and said to him, do you see these people? Do hear them? We diserved this, it was meant to be, the way they are acting, shows just what type of people live here and it shows what type of people that this act was geared towards..a year or so later, i was in the *********, and on no uncertain day, with nothing much to do, my instructor put on a film of 9/11..i could not believe how the first 180sec brutally attacked me emotionally..if i was not sitting in that class amongst my peers, i would have expelled an emotion sorrow, that would have been uncontrolable, i would have not had the power to ease it, i was completely overtaken by all those events put into an order and filmed so fantastically..orchestrated on that film, so perfectly..without a doubt in my mind, there isnt anyone on earth, who could watch those events on that film, and have the power to emotionally detach themselves from it...

Thirteen men from Engine 40, Ladder 35 firehouse initially responded to the terrorist attacks of September 11, 2001; only one survived...god bless

 

[kiwee]

during the afternoon drive 2 work, on 9\11's anniversary i had a strong desire 2 tell 1 of my best friends, who just happens 2 b a fireman and who had been dealt the horrific task of working that day, amongst many others, that i appreciate him..dont usually do it this way unless im drunk..but, sometimes, u have 2 put the manly ego on the back burner..so, i manned up..sean "hey, wish i could buy u a beer tdy, god bless u & the guys, respect bro, i love u"..he gave respect back & i almost lost it..

 

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[digimon7068]

don't ever let go of that shit. . .'cause the assholes that perpetrated those acts ain't lettin' go either. . .

 

[kiwee]

my boy sean had the very unpleasant task of working that day back in 2001, when i called him it was 3pm, he was already on his way to getting as wasted as he could...i cannot imagine the burden on him that he has to bare, but to them, fdny, that day can never be forgotten, they live for that day every year, its there day an they long for it to show respect and love for their fallen brothers..they make sure that they give every ounce of love and emotion that they have in them, to those members who have passed..i hope one day, you have love for someone or something, and you never expireince what it is to loose that...these guys arent perfect believe me, but they run into that building, engullfed in flames, with you being first priority, wether or not you feel the same for them...that is why they are who they are, and you are who you are