on all but taking gear, i can feel you here. when i go out, i drink. haven't been going out, and it's rough sitting at home all the time. real rough, considering i used to always be out. i've been getting better, but it's been making my motivation come and go.
avoid the booze, you will see sometime in the future that it wasn't worth it in the long run, and you're just dumbing yourself down. you'll feel A LOT better if you cut the crap and focus on your goals. suprisingly, after a few times going out with the same guys that you booze it up with, they'll realize you're serious about what you're trying to do, and will lay off and say "let him do his thing"
booze will only hurt.
look at cubuff27, drank for years, and when the booze lost priority, he realized the benifits of not drinking.