Whether you are joking or not , you represent the stereotypical Christian that gave the entire movement/religion a bad name. I am sure you are a good person but that still doesnt stop me from wanting to cut your eye lids off from some of your brainwashed and weak minded bullshit you post. You are a total opposite of what a Christian is supposed to be about. You speak of all these problems you have. A true Christian acknowledges that he or she isnt perfect and that he or she does have problems, worries or concerns, however, they shouldnt effect your life to some of the ridiculous extremes you spit about on this board. Why? Because a true Christian has God within them, Jah, with this they know that what really matters is not these peasant-like problems, what matters is our inner strength and how you the person handle your issues, as God would. You are a product of listening to others and not thinking for yourself(as tautilogical as that is). You need to find God "your" way, not a redacted or edited way that time and false teachers have imposed on you. Till then your a Zealot.
Jah Rastafari