I know exactly what you mean. I don't have any idea about how many of the dead I have hauled or tried to save....but nowhere close to your number. It would take me several more years to witness your experiences with death. I have much respect for you. I don't know about you, but sometimes it is very routine...just a job to me. But even after my 8 years, something happens and it makes me feel new to it all...or too old and tired of it all. Maybe it is the day or the mood but the death creeps back in. I hope you don't go through this,2. I hope it's just me because its hell.
Either way, thanx for sharing this with us. He deserved it.