Machine, you don't have to go to church to be a christian. only to be a "good" (insert name of christianity here, i.e. lutheran, catholic, methodist etc.) do you have to attend church. God said He is with any two or more people that gather in His name. This means your family. you can teach your family the way of God and his Son the Christ while teaching them morality with that an understanding of right and wrong. you have doubts about Jesus. that's the nature of the beast. but follow your heart not reason. religion goes against human rationality, that's why not all will be saved. you want to believe, now take the next step