Be wise here... you made a lot of mistakes in the past with the choices you made in cycling and other things... learn from it... take your time... don't let impatience make things worse... you should have developed patience in prison my man... i made some very bad choices in life in general and have learned a lot from the bad experiences and things have completely turned around but you have to take it one step at a time... do things the right way this time and you will be happy with the results...