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A little off topic, but related to some of the posts I've seen about anxiety lately.
I've never had an anxiety attack or panic attack, and overally I have relatively low anxiety.. not much gets to me.
But the other night I had aniexty like I had not felt since college and looming tests I was not prepared for.
First I watch the real world, and this girl Bryn on there is having a major panic attack and can't even get out of bed.. that got me thinking about it.
Then I see america's most wanted.. and they have this case about a guy who killed a 25 year old at a rest stop.. stabbed her in the throat multiple times. The dectective assigned to the case said he has seen many homicides.. and they are all brutal by nature.. but this was BEYOND brutal.. far beyond anything he had seen. No motive, nothing was stolen, she was just there at the rest stop with her dog in her van.
this fuck is NEVER found.. but they have DNA. His DNA doesn't match any known offenders across the country, but a few months later another unsolved murder shows up with his DNA on it. The police then said he has killed before the rest stop vicitm.. and after this latest California victime (the first was in Arkansas).. he has travelled the entire country and killed people, AND he is on the streets free.
That just got my thinking about how easily life could be taken from you. Some psycho fuck feels like killing you and there isn't a thing you can do.. AND they can get away with it..
So then I'm watching war coverage.. and people are getiting killed in action.. ambushed.. etc..
Then I see some discovery channel shit about the Nazis.. and the crazy doctor.. I can't remember his name.. but he took two twins... and MADE THEM into SIAMESE TWINS! He fucking sewed their arteries and shit together.. took away one of the hearts.. took away other vital organs from one of them and made them share their cardiovascular system.. but each had their own brains.. it was gruesome.. the parents killed their own children because it was so horrible for the kids to be like that...
When the war ended that fucker fled and died on his own in some South American country!
All that added up.. and for some reason I had the worst anxiety that night.. its weird to look back on it and see what caused it.. but still I can't believe I felt that way.
I've never had an anxiety attack or panic attack, and overally I have relatively low anxiety.. not much gets to me.
But the other night I had aniexty like I had not felt since college and looming tests I was not prepared for.
First I watch the real world, and this girl Bryn on there is having a major panic attack and can't even get out of bed.. that got me thinking about it.
Then I see america's most wanted.. and they have this case about a guy who killed a 25 year old at a rest stop.. stabbed her in the throat multiple times. The dectective assigned to the case said he has seen many homicides.. and they are all brutal by nature.. but this was BEYOND brutal.. far beyond anything he had seen. No motive, nothing was stolen, she was just there at the rest stop with her dog in her van.
this fuck is NEVER found.. but they have DNA. His DNA doesn't match any known offenders across the country, but a few months later another unsolved murder shows up with his DNA on it. The police then said he has killed before the rest stop vicitm.. and after this latest California victime (the first was in Arkansas).. he has travelled the entire country and killed people, AND he is on the streets free.
That just got my thinking about how easily life could be taken from you. Some psycho fuck feels like killing you and there isn't a thing you can do.. AND they can get away with it..
So then I'm watching war coverage.. and people are getiting killed in action.. ambushed.. etc..
Then I see some discovery channel shit about the Nazis.. and the crazy doctor.. I can't remember his name.. but he took two twins... and MADE THEM into SIAMESE TWINS! He fucking sewed their arteries and shit together.. took away one of the hearts.. took away other vital organs from one of them and made them share their cardiovascular system.. but each had their own brains.. it was gruesome.. the parents killed their own children because it was so horrible for the kids to be like that...
When the war ended that fucker fled and died on his own in some South American country!
All that added up.. and for some reason I had the worst anxiety that night.. its weird to look back on it and see what caused it.. but still I can't believe I felt that way.
