Drunken_Weasel said:
I'm fat.
I'm ugly.
I'm to shy to even ask a girl out.. and the majority of girls are way to fine for me to even aproach because of the 2 above reasons.
My self esteem sucks.
I'm poor.
I'm stupid.. getting into college.. but WTF for.. I don't know what I want to do with my life.
I try to lose weight.. depression gets in the way.
I try to run, I got sick as a dog, and am still suffering from the sickness..
Friends are straying away.. all got gf's.. while I sit at home and either lift weights or chat, or listen to music...
Bro I am to be serious for once, there was a time I felt exactly the same way.
After moving to California from Arizona I had a very hard time making friends at the High School I was at, I did not tough it out and dropped out because I was lonely among other things. I was so self conscious and depressed that I had trouble even talking to people, be it male or female. I sat at home doing nothing but playing video games and eating junk food for 8 months. I got up to 300 pounds, about 50% bodyfat, on a 5'8" frame. My Bench press was 95 pounds. I was beyond lonely, my mother was the only family I have and I did not even get to see her except for a couple hours a day because she worked constantly.
I was suicidal and I hated absolutely everything about myself. The only exercise my fatass got was walking to Jack in the Box, which was even hard being such an out of shape piece of shit.
I could not even picture myself with a girl because what girl would want a fat piece of shit like me, Right? I decided one night after eating an entire Pizza by myself, having not showered for a few days, and not having any social contact for a good few months I would do two things.
The first thing I was going to do was make an honest, whole hearted attempt to get my fucking life in order and do something about the disgusting state I let myself slip into. If that did not work, I was going to buy a pistol, put it in my mouth, and kill myself, because I was not going to spend the rest of my life laying in bed at night wishing I was something else.
The next day I got up at 8 a.m. , I had not gotten up before 2 p.m. in a good six months. I took my fatass out for a walk. I think I made it around the block once before I was exhausted. I knew nothing of nutrition, so reading a food Label I saw that 2000 Calories was a normal diet. I figured if I wanted to lose weight I should keep it at 1000 calories. My determination allowed me to eat 1000 Calories for a good six months, and I had seen on TV somewhere that carbs were what made you fat, so I decided not to eat them. How I had the willpower to do that I have no idea, because I sure as hell could not do it now. Unbeknown to me I slipped in and out of Ketosis constantly, which made me feel like shit, but I sucked it up and kept at it. I slowly dropped down weight weekly, Eventually getting down to 270. I re-enrolled in High School, I had a few extra credits from my dropout so I decided to take two weight training classes. One-Third of my day was spent training, my grades were atrocious but my self image was improving daily. It didn't take long and before I knew it I was down to 205.
For the first time in my teenage life I was actually happy. I wasn't fat. I was a normal, happy kid. I wasn't disgusted with myself for once, I was pleased and proud of what I had accomplished. Everything turned around from that single moment where I decided that I was tired of the way things were going and I was going to change it, no matter what happened or what obstacles lay in my way. No bullshit, No whining, No Excuses. I decided things would change for me and there would be no stopping it, period.
Now I know this sounds like a fucking afterschool special or something, but I wanted you to understand that I am not just some person giving you advice, I have been where you have been, perhaps worse. I am telling you that the only way to turn things around is to man the fuck up and decide nothing will stop you. Bullshit pills are not going to do anything, I don't give a fuck what a doctor says. I could have taken all of the fucking pills in the world and it wouldn't have changed shit until I had decided that in my heart I would do no matter what it takes.
Four years later I am a happy, well adjusted, confident person, and I have a bright future. I shudder even thinking where I would be right now if I had not turned things around in that single moment. Decide what you want bro, you can wake up tomorrow and remain the way you are, or you can go to sleep tonight knowing that this is the last night of your old mindset. You can be a motherfucking unstoppable machine, nothing can stand in your way, you just have to realize it. It's already inside you, and the only person who's going to activate it is you, not your family or friends, and especially not some stupid fucking pill.
There's a quote that I like, sums shit up well homie.
"In the depths of winter I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer."
-Albert Camus
You are an unstoppable motherfucker that can achieve whatever he wants, not a quivering little bitch. Act like it.
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