An update on my life

[Lestat]

Its been a while since I've checked in with everyone regarding all that has been going on in life.

I'm coming up on two months post breakup year, just a few days shy.

I'm in another rough patch emotionally. I haven't spoken with her since the last email that basically said don't talk to me, and don't expect to hear from me. I have to give her credit for respecting that and not contacting me.

Since then I have dated a ton, had some crazy sex, gotten excited about at least one girl.. but I'm still left here feeling blah and empty.

I've had 3 girls show real serious interest in me, and I've spent some time getting to know them, but nothing has really given me much of a zing.. or made me even really excited to see them.

There was one girl that I saw twice, and after the second date things looked really good... but I didn't hear for her for over a week and then today I get this:

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I apologize for being so out of touch. I was studying really hard all weekend through yesterday and had a really restless night tuesday night. Well, it progressively got worse after the final and I finally spent all last night in the urgent care with a kidney infection, yay. My back was just killing me that I could barely move, so I'm pretty much down for the count for awhile. My godparents are staying for a week starting friday night so I won't be able to make it on saturday with you. I'm sorry it's been so tough to get together, life is just crazy. Here I thought summer was supposed to be relaxing and boring! Well, I gotta run to the pharamacy to get some anti-biotics (told you I was accident-prone) talk to you soon!
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This was the one girl that I was excited about, a girl that "wowed" me.. but this email above is a basic blowoff... I didn't even get this until after 2 phone calls and 2 emails (over the course of 9 days).

I'm in that phase again where I am back to thinking about my ex way too often... thinking that I'll never find someone like that again.. or find someone that cares for me as much, knows me as well, understands me so much... etc. Its a shitty feeling to say the least.

Ironically, I have a date tonight and another tomorrow and a fun filled weekend with some good friends... but I'm still just BLAH.. I really couldn't care less about the date tonight at this point.. tomorrows is kinda whatever too because I'm not sure how well her and I are matching up... but a lot of it could be me.. I feel like emtionally damaged goods now.. like I can't really give anyone a fair chance anyway..

BLAH

 

[SoKlueles]

Your trying too hard to find someone to replace"the one" you know, when it happens, you wont even realize it is happening till its right there in ur face

Good luck cutie

 

[string_bean00]

Is this the first girl that really did this to you? It seems that way from reading your posts.



The song is true, "The first cut is the deepest..."

 

[KillahBee]

I think of Lestat whenever I hear the song "Fuck you Lucy" by Atmosphere.

 

[Lestat]

Is this the first girl that really did this to you? It seems that way from reading your posts.



The song is true, "The first cut is the deepest..."

2nd girl... but this is WAY WAY WAY different then the first because with the first she basically broke up with me because I wasn't ready to take it to the next level and get married and what not.

 

[Dial_tone]

Here's what you do, bro man. Picture your ex slamming down a big ole 40oz Coke from 7-11...you'll never want that bitch again.

 

[IwouldSlamU]

i understand where you are coming from, Once you have love you never want to go without it. hang in there, here is one way to think about it. Some people go through life and never experence what you allready have. it will come to you.....

 

[jh1]

Here's what you do, bro man. Picture your ex slamming down a big ole 40oz Coke from 7-11...you'll never want that bitch again.

Yeah... yeah... the NON diet kind... LOL...


Seriously though letstat - when you got blown off, it was natural to feel a bit defeated and want to run back to what you had.

Don't do it, stop thinking about her. Remember she is the one that did this to you in the first place. Stick through this, you will find someone... it doesn't happen overnight. And you will be much better for it.

Just remember... that crap she pulled on you was total BS and you deserve better.

 

[Dial_tone]

I still think about alot of my ex's, only in purely sexual terms or purely friendship terms...never both.

 

[from zero]

Like SoK said man, it sounds like you're trying really hard to replace your ex. Stop it homes. Take things easy. Have some fun with these girls. Have some fun sex. Don't think too far ahead about relationships and shit. Just go with the flow bor.

If you post again about how you are thinking about the ex, I'm going to drive 3000 miles to there and punch you in your head.