Actually, for being pretty small at this point, my trainer just about had a heart attack when he saw that I was in the upper 20%'s on bf. Even when I'm not wearing much it's not really evident. Yuck.
My main goal is to start eating again...and start eating right. As I'm almost 2 years into recovering from an eating disorder, I'll openly admit that my eating habits are HORRIBLE. Not like I eat fast food and ice cream all day, but enless I make a consious effort to eat, I don't really remember to do so for days. I don't get hungry anymore. My body stopped that years ago. So getting myself back into eating is definately my priority. My bf is likely so high from fasting (not really intentionally anymore...just habit) and them having high calorie binges on refined sugar. Hmmm....crappy plan. My other problem is that I've spent years feeding off of my muscle mass.
Overall I'd like to drop bf and increase mass. I am FINALLY to the point where weight doesn't matter...just how I look. Seeking to be healthy and I'm willing to learn all I can and do what it takes. ANY adivise is welcome. I have a handful of sessions with a trainer...but I'm not sure I like him. He hasn't a clue what to advise me to do in terms of diet, or at least I get that impression. It's beyond him how I could go days without thinking of eating when he can't go more than a few hours. I'm not him. I have found a weath of support, inspiration, and information on the women's board. I'm so positive at this point I'm just about glowing.
Working out a ton, lifting lots, scheduling that into my life, and sticking to a diet really won't be that hard for me as I've been really rigid with my eating/workout habits for a long time. My main concern right now is setting up an eating plan that's right for a recovering anorexic. I'm hopeful that I can do it though and I'm dead set on doing everything in my power to have the body I used to have. Like I've said here before, I'm sick of being sick. I'm tired of fighting my body. I want more for myself.
Kate