Please Scroll Down to See Forums Below i really need help. ive developed a psychological dependence to painkillers. for the last 2 weeks ive taken anywhere from 15-30 mg of oxycontin a day and everyday i try to tell myself "thats it im done!" i end up wanting it and buying it again. ive only taken a few days off of it here and there in the last 2 weeks. i need advice on how to get it out of my head that i need it to make life better. in the last year ive been struggling with a relationship that has gotten worse, i lost my job, and i have other things bothering me to no end and this is the only way i have used to forget about my problems. im not posting this as a "woe is me" thread but im terrified of the road im going down. as much as i want to stop, on the other side, i want that euphoria. someone please help! im just looking for advice on a way to look at life in a manner that everything will be ok without the drugs. does anyone have any stories or advice they can PLEASE share with me???
addicted to painkillers
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straitedge52
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Don'y beat yourself up...this is fairly common. Just approach it as you would any other problem and stop letting it control you. It's not as if you are chasing heroin all over the ghetto!!
Seriously..just taper off and move away from it. Go to the gym more...take up a new interest. There are better things to do with your mind than trying to figure out how to get more of this shit. If you man up and kick it in the head before you fuck yourself up you will be ok.
Good luck...just do it and move on.
Seriously..just taper off and move away from it. Go to the gym more...take up a new interest. There are better things to do with your mind than trying to figure out how to get more of this shit. If you man up and kick it in the head before you fuck yourself up you will be ok.
Good luck...just do it and move on.
cryptosporidium
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that euphoria wont be around further up the road and youll be entering into the realm physical dependence (just taking enough not to get violently sick, forget about feeling good.) you should be scared of the road youre going down because a lot of people never return from it.
i have some pretty severe chronic pain issues and i have been on and off of painkillers for years. ive flirted with danger but im one of those few lucky enough to be able to repeatedly break the cycle. however, during those years being around it, i have known many people that have spiraled out of control.
you're lucky that you realize you have a problem now while its easier to get away. ive had to bring people to rehab and seen them piss their money away, end up on the streets. you think things suck now? you should count your blessings.
keep a calendar and mark off every day that you use and how much, let it sink in what youre doing, use your awareness. when it comes time to put another mark down on paper you're gonna feel like a fool. looking back on scores of marks will make you feel like an even bigger fool and maybe youll snap out of it. if that fails to yield results, you should seek counseling. if you're embarassed by something like that, well thats just silly. opiates are notoriously addictive and have laid waste to some of the most brilliant minds in history. its intimidating.
i have some pretty severe chronic pain issues and i have been on and off of painkillers for years. ive flirted with danger but im one of those few lucky enough to be able to repeatedly break the cycle. however, during those years being around it, i have known many people that have spiraled out of control.
you're lucky that you realize you have a problem now while its easier to get away. ive had to bring people to rehab and seen them piss their money away, end up on the streets. you think things suck now? you should count your blessings.
keep a calendar and mark off every day that you use and how much, let it sink in what youre doing, use your awareness. when it comes time to put another mark down on paper you're gonna feel like a fool. looking back on scores of marks will make you feel like an even bigger fool and maybe youll snap out of it. if that fails to yield results, you should seek counseling. if you're embarassed by something like that, well thats just silly. opiates are notoriously addictive and have laid waste to some of the most brilliant minds in history. its intimidating.
Im surprised no one has said this but, talk to your dr
it sounds like you may have an underlying depression
your dr wont decide you can never have narcotics again but may make it a pita in the future by only giving you a set number of dosages at a set time line in the future
getting off of opiates can be difficult to say the least and if you feel like there is a problem, there is definately a problem
other option, screw charting it or tapering...stop, just stop and vow to not take anymore
with your usage level and duration, from what youve posted, your not going to have severe withdrawal if you just stop
if you cant follow any of the above advise, approach your dr, seriously, theyve heard it all
it sounds like you may have an underlying depression
your dr wont decide you can never have narcotics again but may make it a pita in the future by only giving you a set number of dosages at a set time line in the future
getting off of opiates can be difficult to say the least and if you feel like there is a problem, there is definately a problem
other option, screw charting it or tapering...stop, just stop and vow to not take anymore
with your usage level and duration, from what youve posted, your not going to have severe withdrawal if you just stop
if you cant follow any of the above advise, approach your dr, seriously, theyve heard it all
the thing that is killing me is that now i KNOW how it feels when i take it...so whenever something stressful comes along i have difficulty dealing with them in real life so i use those. ive been taking painkillers off and on to get high for over a year now, but never for more than 2 days at a time because i didnt wanna feel like a "junkie" and i just told myself "its fine you dont have a problem". this oxy is a different story. i dont know why im posting this here lookin for advice but i went to a counselor last year and they tried putting me on meds and antidepressants, which i didnt want because i had taken them before a few years ago and all they did was fuck me up. I dont wanna tell my family because they all think highly of me as a successful, 26 year old Penn State graduate. My gf would leave me and i wouldnt be able to deal with it. i guess its easier to talk to people on the computer because you dont know me.
cryptosporidium
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plus we're unbias. shrinks and pcps are my last choice for help, first choice is to make a committed decision to stop and take your emotions out of the equation. then use some organizational tools and foster awareness so you can have some confidence and momentum. you're using as a coping skill, its not a good coping skill cause its obviously self destructive. so you should seek new tools to help you deal with the stress in your life.
Melaina
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Every addiction will have that effect.... even if it's that one cigarette a day or the glass of wine at night.... I agree talk to your doctor but you need to take it DAY BY DAY.... after a while you won't feel that "butterfly, muscles tightening anxiety urge" to take it. You've only been doing it for 2 weeks.... it gets harder the longer you wait... and that euphoria will go away and then you will require more and more to keep it... that's a danger zone right there.
artificialaspirations
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realize the euphoria will soon stop and misery will prevail. It will take your money, your job, your gf, your life. Don't beat yourself up, every gets down at some time or another. Flush the remaining pils down the toilet for closure and make a promise to yourself. Write it down and post it everywhere. It doesn't have to be obvious, but more of an uplifting statement that will help you steer the course. Like "I'm better than that" or "the roads of others are not to be traveled by me"...whatever it takes. The first step is the hardest. Don't go any farther.
I understand your apprehension to seek help, try this yourself and if you struggle see your doc asap.
I understand your apprehension to seek help, try this yourself and if you struggle see your doc asap.
airsmith2k
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painkillers without a doubt are the best high there is and yeah they are addictive as shit i feel u man ive been hooked on them for almost 2 yrs now...been takin suboxens to get off opiates and u just get hooked on them...u try to wein down then one nite u wanna go out or ur in a bad mood u go rite back up to a high dose and the weining down has 2 start all over again...it sucks and i wish i could get off its the withdrawl that i dont want to go threw
i guess im not quite where u are with withdrawals bro. i feel u and im sorry. im in a state of mental addiction. i didnt take anything the last 2 days because i couldnt get any and luckily no w/d i just crave it really really bad and it went from a 10mg bump getting me high to 30mg at once.
