18 year old, first cycle realisation

[Bsaint]

good to hear, I made the mistake of messing with some (real) sdrol freshman year of college 18/19 and got some pretty bad gyno from it, I later had to get surgery because of the size of the lumps and pain. Ended up costing around 8k and scared my family pretty good. I've stayed away and busted my ass for years to get back in remotely enough shape to be happy with myself. Now at 25 I'm looking into everything ahead of time, making sure I have everything, making sure I have enough, and then I will start my cycle.

 

[RADAR]

I have come to a realisation in the last couple of months.
I am 18 and I wanted to do a 12 week cycle of Test C, with Nolv and Clomid with HCG for PCT. I was advised multiple times not to do steroids because I was too young and the risks of dangerous side effects were much higher. I even made different accounts lying about my age in order to get the information I was looking for.
I visited the Doctor to ask if he would monitor my cycle, he said no, but would meet for general health check, I changed my Doctor and have a meeting at the end of this week.

I was talking to a friend yesterday and I had the evening to myself to think, and then, along with the last two months debating whether I would or wouldn't do a cylce, I realised that I wanted to do a cycle. But for all the wrong reasons.

I am a fairly confident person, good grades, I do fine with girls, I have a pretty good body for my age and a good set of friends.

But recently, because of exams and things, I haven't been socialising that much recently and my confidence with girls and meeting new people has decreased. I saw steroids as a way to 'bring more girls' into my life, as a way of being more confident in myself and getting that attention from people that I haven't really had for a while.

But all of these things don't really have anything to do with my body at all, the only REAL way to change that is to go out more, to meet strangers on the street, to talk to the hots girls in the clubs again like I used to and gain more friends.

Doing steroids would just cover up the cracks in my personality, but not fix the root issues. So that is why I decided not to do steroids, I may do one day.. I may not. At 5'7" I only need to be about 80kgs @ 10% bf to look amazing. I'm 65kgs @ <10% bf now. And I sort of enjoy training natural.

I will probably still post in the steroid section because I find it all fascinating, I have learned so much about these amazing drugs in the fast few months.. A LOT!!

I want to take this opportunity to apologise to all the members I argued with and called names because they wouldn't (quite rightly) give me information on how to do steroids at 18, without them I would probably be on a cycle now and only realise this and it be too late.

Cheers

Kinder

By golly You made my day, I admire you ,especially over alot of those who come here Buy stuff then make a post how to run,eat stuff like that handed to them on a silver platter, i researched over 2 yrs before i made a move and that was in my 30's many moons ago.

 

[sterolizer]

Good choice, you wont regret it!

 

[StRoNg_WoN]

Good job buddy.. Well played... Train hard, Eat hard, Sleep hard!