Oh, you dear girl ... I have no words
There is almost nothing worse than watching someone you love face that. It gets to the point that you'd rather it was you that was sick, it would be easier to deal with ...
Vent away, go pvt. if you need to. Don't keep it bottled up. Honey, trust me on this, while (thank deity) my husband has never had any serious health problems, I've been down the road before.
I'm shocked that a virus caused all that, though?! Holy shit
I remember how fucked up I was with viral meningitis last year, but I didn't know it could cause so much damage to a heart, OMG, horrifying ...