Approved Log TRT Training and Lifestyle Journal

[Dr_Strangelove]

Hello all!

So I'm VERY VERY new to the world of PEDs and to the fitness world as a whole so I'm probably a bit of a joke to most of you that are ripped and actually like what you see in the mirror. But I want to be one of you, so here I am.

I'm 45 with a lovely wife and great kids. Im retired military and got out after 21 years due to a major back injury. Had 3 surgeries on it and it got A LITTLE BIT better. After some years laying around popping pills and drinking too much my body is an embarrassing mess. I got depressed and things got super dark, until one night I almost joined the 22 Club, but my wife talked me down and I went to rehab for alcohol.

I'm clean and sober 3 years now, and although no pain pills leaves me in a lot of pain, i am determined to not be ashamed of taking my shirt off in public. At my heaviest, I was 265, pretty much all fat. My face was puffy and I looked like microwaved dog shit. I stopped depression eating like a pig and am now at 225, but I still look disgusting so there is a lot of work I've got to do.

My wife had the bright idea to get be on TRT, and although the VA told me a test level of 206 wasn't low enough to warrant TRT through them i was given trt through a major online clinic and have been on it since August 12th.

I take 2 shots a week, Wednesday morning and Saturday night, 0.30mL each time (120mg/wk).

Since getting put on TRT life has gotten SO much better. Im sleeping, I'm happier and I feel better about myself which is great.

Although lately I've been in a really depressed mood, struggling with feeling ugly and unhappy with my life and how I look over all. Not sure if that's the trt, or just my normal self returning after the TRT Honeymoon.

Working out with the back pain is an issue, but I want to get past that bc I know once I gain some muscle, I'll be more stable and thru that I'll have less pain. But as if right now, I don't really work out. I don't know how.

In the military i ran......a LOT bc of my job, and I stayed in great shape and maintained a great musculature just by showing up and doing the training and all that. But now I'm an accountant that sits at a desk all day so I've wasted away the muscle and replaced it with fat.


So..... for the last 3 weeks I've done a VERY VERY minimal work out at home with 30 and 40 pound dumb bells, just arm curls and things to work out my triceps (don't know what they are called but I put the 40 lbs behind my head and lift it over my head and then back down behind my head..... sorry I'm really ignorant of all this)

But basically I struggle to do a few push ups at this point. I know, I know........ eww

But like I said, I'm determined. I want to look good ONE more time before I die. I want my wife to drool when she sees me. And at this point I'll do anything to get it, but for someone like me, that has ZERO knowledge it's daunting. It's so much info and so much of it is conflicting and confusing.

I'm the process of looking for sermorlin I found this site. Everyone was so nice and helpful and suggested i create a journal to get suggestions and guidance. So here i am.

I would REALLY like to add something to stack with the test, bc like I said, at this point I'm willing to shoot all kinds of shit in my ass to get to where I want to be. Grok said anavar or trenbolon is most used, but I don't really know.


Age-45

Weight-225

Height-6'1

Gear-120/w test

Diet: (probably atrocious but I lost 40lbs in 6 months on it)
Breakfast- Chik fila chicken biscuit w/1 sauce
Lunch- small bowl of yogurt with fruit/granola
Dinner- usually nothing

Workout- 30xbiceps + 30xtriceps each day


Other things- I take Adderall for Adhd, buprenorphine for pain (doesn't work but the va makes me take it in order to get the Adderall for what ever reason) vit d,a,c and magnesium.


That's it. That's me. Like I said, I don't really know what I'm doing or how to start. The few times I've tried to get in the gym since getting hurt I've gained zero muscle and got frustrated and quit. Is there hope for me?


Thanks for your time and support.

 

[the_alcatraz]

Hello all!

So I'm VERY VERY new to the world of PEDs and to the fitness world as a whole so I'm probably a bit of a joke to most of you that are ripped and actually like what you see in the mirror. But I want to be one of you, so here I am.

I'm 45 with a lovely wife and great kids. Im retired military and got out after 21 years due to a major back injury. Had 3 surgeries on it and it got A LITTLE BIT better. After some years laying around popping pills and drinking too much my body is an embarrassing mess. I got depressed and things got super dark, until one night I almost joined the 22 Club, but my wife talked me down and I went to rehab for alcohol.

I'm clean and sober 3 years now, and although no pain pills leaves me in a lot of pain, i am determined to not be ashamed of taking my shirt off in public. At my heaviest, I was 265, pretty much all fat. My face was puffy and I looked like microwaved dog shit. I stopped depression eating like a pig and am now at 225, but I still look disgusting so there is a lot of work I've got to do.

My wife had the bright idea to get be on TRT, and although the VA told me a test level of 206 wasn't low enough to warrant TRT through them i was given trt through a major online clinic and have been on it since August 12th.

I take 2 shots a week, Wednesday morning and Saturday night, 0.30mL each time (120mg/wk).

Since getting put on TRT life has gotten SO much better. Im sleeping, I'm happier and I feel better about myself which is great.

Although lately I've been in a really depressed mood, struggling with feeling ugly and unhappy with my life and how I look over all. Not sure if that's the trt, or just my normal self returning after the TRT Honeymoon.

Working out with the back pain is an issue, but I want to get past that bc I know once I gain some muscle, I'll be more stable and thru that I'll have less pain. But as if right now, I don't really work out. I don't know how.

In the military i ran......a LOT bc of my job, and I stayed in great shape and maintained a great musculature just by showing up and doing the training and all that. But now I'm an accountant that sits at a desk all day so I've wasted away the muscle and replaced it with fat.


So..... for the last 3 weeks I've done a VERY VERY minimal work out at home with 30 and 40 pound dumb bells, just arm curls and things to work out my triceps (don't know what they are called but I put the 40 lbs behind my head and lift it over my head and then back down behind my head..... sorry I'm really ignorant of all this)

But basically I struggle to do a few push ups at this point. I know, I know........ eww

But like I said, I'm determined. I want to look good ONE more time before I die. I want my wife to drool when she sees me. And at this point I'll do anything to get it, but for someone like me, that has ZERO knowledge it's daunting. It's so much info and so much of it is conflicting and confusing.

I'm the process of looking for sermorlin I found this site. Everyone was so nice and helpful and suggested i create a journal to get suggestions and guidance. So here i am.

I would REALLY like to add something to stack with the test, bc like I said, at this point I'm willing to shoot all kinds of shit in my ass to get to where I want to be. Grok said anavar or trenbolon is most used, but I don't really know.


Age-45

Weight-225

Height-6'1

Gear-120/w test

Diet: (probably atrocious but I lost 40lbs in 6 months on it)
Breakfast- Chik fila chicken biscuit w/1 sauce
Lunch- small bowl of yogurt with fruit/granola
Dinner- usually nothing

Workout- 30xbiceps + 30xtriceps each day


Other things- I take Adderall for Adhd, buprenorphine for pain (doesn't work but the va makes me take it in order to get the Adderall for what ever reason) vit d,a,c and magnesium.


That's it. That's me. Like I said, I don't really know what I'm doing or how to start. The few times I've tried to get in the gym since getting hurt I've gained zero muscle and got frustrated and quit. Is there hope for me?


Thanks for your time and support.

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[stevesmi]

Hello all!

So I'm VERY VERY new to the world of PEDs and to the fitness world as a whole so I'm probably a bit of a joke to most of you that are ripped and actually like what you see in the mirror. But I want to be one of you, so here I am.

I'm 45 with a lovely wife and great kids. Im retired military and got out after 21 years due to a major back injury. Had 3 surgeries on it and it got A LITTLE BIT better. After some years laying around popping pills and drinking too much my body is an embarrassing mess. I got depressed and things got super dark, until one night I almost joined the 22 Club, but my wife talked me down and I went to rehab for alcohol.

I'm clean and sober 3 years now, and although no pain pills leaves me in a lot of pain, i am determined to not be ashamed of taking my shirt off in public. At my heaviest, I was 265, pretty much all fat. My face was puffy and I looked like microwaved dog shit. I stopped depression eating like a pig and am now at 225, but I still look disgusting so there is a lot of work I've got to do.

My wife had the bright idea to get be on TRT, and although the VA told me a test level of 206 wasn't low enough to warrant TRT through them i was given trt through a major online clinic and have been on it since August 12th.

I take 2 shots a week, Wednesday morning and Saturday night, 0.30mL each time (120mg/wk).

Since getting put on TRT life has gotten SO much better. Im sleeping, I'm happier and I feel better about myself which is great.

Although lately I've been in a really depressed mood, struggling with feeling ugly and unhappy with my life and how I look over all. Not sure if that's the trt, or just my normal self returning after the TRT Honeymoon.

Working out with the back pain is an issue, but I want to get past that bc I know once I gain some muscle, I'll be more stable and thru that I'll have less pain. But as if right now, I don't really work out. I don't know how.

In the military i ran......a LOT bc of my job, and I stayed in great shape and maintained a great musculature just by showing up and doing the training and all that. But now I'm an accountant that sits at a desk all day so I've wasted away the muscle and replaced it with fat.


So..... for the last 3 weeks I've done a VERY VERY minimal work out at home with 30 and 40 pound dumb bells, just arm curls and things to work out my triceps (don't know what they are called but I put the 40 lbs behind my head and lift it over my head and then back down behind my head..... sorry I'm really ignorant of all this)

But basically I struggle to do a few push ups at this point. I know, I know........ eww

But like I said, I'm determined. I want to look good ONE more time before I die. I want my wife to drool when she sees me. And at this point I'll do anything to get it, but for someone like me, that has ZERO knowledge it's daunting. It's so much info and so much of it is conflicting and confusing.

I'm the process of looking for sermorlin I found this site. Everyone was so nice and helpful and suggested i create a journal to get suggestions and guidance. So here i am.

I would REALLY like to add something to stack with the test, bc like I said, at this point I'm willing to shoot all kinds of shit in my ass to get to where I want to be. Grok said anavar or trenbolon is most used, but I don't really know.


Age-45

Weight-225

Height-6'1

Gear-120/w test

Diet: (probably atrocious but I lost 40lbs in 6 months on it)
Breakfast- Chik fila chicken biscuit w/1 sauce
Lunch- small bowl of yogurt with fruit/granola
Dinner- usually nothing

Workout- 30xbiceps + 30xtriceps each day


Other things- I take Adderall for Adhd, buprenorphine for pain (doesn't work but the va makes me take it in order to get the Adderall for what ever reason) vit d,a,c and magnesium.


That's it. That's me. Like I said, I don't really know what I'm doing or how to start. The few times I've tried to get in the gym since getting hurt I've gained zero muscle and got frustrated and quit. Is there hope for me?


Thanks for your time and support.

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@Dr_Strangelove this log is the best thing you could put together for sure. Don't worry, we'll get you in the best shape of your life. I'm glad that you have conquered your addictions.

 

[2Thick]

Hello all!

So I'm VERY VERY new to the world of PEDs and to the fitness world as a whole so I'm probably a bit of a joke to most of you that are ripped and actually like what you see in the mirror. But I want to be one of you, so here I am.

I'm 45 with a lovely wife and great kids. Im retired military and got out after 21 years due to a major back injury. Had 3 surgeries on it and it got A LITTLE BIT better. After some years laying around popping pills and drinking too much my body is an embarrassing mess. I got depressed and things got super dark, until one night I almost joined the 22 Club, but my wife talked me down and I went to rehab for alcohol.

I'm clean and sober 3 years now, and although no pain pills leaves me in a lot of pain, i am determined to not be ashamed of taking my shirt off in public. At my heaviest, I was 265, pretty much all fat. My face was puffy and I looked like microwaved dog shit. I stopped depression eating like a pig and am now at 225, but I still look disgusting so there is a lot of work I've got to do.

My wife had the bright idea to get be on TRT, and although the VA told me a test level of 206 wasn't low enough to warrant TRT through them i was given trt through a major online clinic and have been on it since August 12th.

I take 2 shots a week, Wednesday morning and Saturday night, 0.30mL each time (120mg/wk).

Since getting put on TRT life has gotten SO much better. Im sleeping, I'm happier and I feel better about myself which is great.

Although lately I've been in a really depressed mood, struggling with feeling ugly and unhappy with my life and how I look over all. Not sure if that's the trt, or just my normal self returning after the TRT Honeymoon.

Working out with the back pain is an issue, but I want to get past that bc I know once I gain some muscle, I'll be more stable and thru that I'll have less pain. But as if right now, I don't really work out. I don't know how.

In the military i ran......a LOT bc of my job, and I stayed in great shape and maintained a great musculature just by showing up and doing the training and all that. But now I'm an accountant that sits at a desk all day so I've wasted away the muscle and replaced it with fat.


So..... for the last 3 weeks I've done a VERY VERY minimal work out at home with 30 and 40 pound dumb bells, just arm curls and things to work out my triceps (don't know what they are called but I put the 40 lbs behind my head and lift it over my head and then back down behind my head..... sorry I'm really ignorant of all this)

But basically I struggle to do a few push ups at this point. I know, I know........ eww

But like I said, I'm determined. I want to look good ONE more time before I die. I want my wife to drool when she sees me. And at this point I'll do anything to get it, but for someone like me, that has ZERO knowledge it's daunting. It's so much info and so much of it is conflicting and confusing.

I'm the process of looking for sermorlin I found this site. Everyone was so nice and helpful and suggested i create a journal to get suggestions and guidance. So here i am.

I would REALLY like to add something to stack with the test, bc like I said, at this point I'm willing to shoot all kinds of shit in my ass to get to where I want to be. Grok said anavar or trenbolon is most used, but I don't really know.


Age-45

Weight-225

Height-6'1

Gear-120/w test

Diet: (probably atrocious but I lost 40lbs in 6 months on it)
Breakfast- Chik fila chicken biscuit w/1 sauce
Lunch- small bowl of yogurt with fruit/granola
Dinner- usually nothing

Workout- 30xbiceps + 30xtriceps each day


Other things- I take Adderall for Adhd, buprenorphine for pain (doesn't work but the va makes me take it in order to get the Adderall for what ever reason) vit d,a,c and magnesium.


That's it. That's me. Like I said, I don't really know what I'm doing or how to start. The few times I've tried to get in the gym since getting hurt I've gained zero muscle and got frustrated and quit. Is there hope for me?


Thanks for your time and support.

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This is a great start to this log. My recommendation is to look at the other logs and definitely learn some tips and tricks. I think the best thing for you is to learn how to meal prep. That's going to be crucial. @Dr_Strangelove

 

[ROIDDERS]

@

Hello all!

So I'm VERY VERY new to the world of PEDs and to the fitness world as a whole so I'm probably a bit of a joke to most of you that are ripped and actually like what you see in the mirror. But I want to be one of you, so here I am.

I'm 45 with a lovely wife and great kids. Im retired military and got out after 21 years due to a major back injury. Had 3 surgeries on it and it got A LITTLE BIT better. After some years laying around popping pills and drinking too much my body is an embarrassing mess. I got depressed and things got super dark, until one night I almost joined the 22 Club, but my wife talked me down and I went to rehab for alcohol.

I'm clean and sober 3 years now, and although no pain pills leaves me in a lot of pain, i am determined to not be ashamed of taking my shirt off in public. At my heaviest, I was 265, pretty much all fat. My face was puffy and I looked like microwaved dog shit. I stopped depression eating like a pig and am now at 225, but I still look disgusting so there is a lot of work I've got to do.

My wife had the bright idea to get be on TRT, and although the VA told me a test level of 206 wasn't low enough to warrant TRT through them i was given trt through a major online clinic and have been on it since August 12th.

I take 2 shots a week, Wednesday morning and Saturday night, 0.30mL each time (120mg/wk).

Since getting put on TRT life has gotten SO much better. Im sleeping, I'm happier and I feel better about myself which is great.

Although lately I've been in a really depressed mood, struggling with feeling ugly and unhappy with my life and how I look over all. Not sure if that's the trt, or just my normal self returning after the TRT Honeymoon.

Working out with the back pain is an issue, but I want to get past that bc I know once I gain some muscle, I'll be more stable and thru that I'll have less pain. But as if right now, I don't really work out. I don't know how.

In the military i ran......a LOT bc of my job, and I stayed in great shape and maintained a great musculature just by showing up and doing the training and all that. But now I'm an accountant that sits at a desk all day so I've wasted away the muscle and replaced it with fat.


So..... for the last 3 weeks I've done a VERY VERY minimal work out at home with 30 and 40 pound dumb bells, just arm curls and things to work out my triceps (don't know what they are called but I put the 40 lbs behind my head and lift it over my head and then back down behind my head..... sorry I'm really ignorant of all this)

But basically I struggle to do a few push ups at this point. I know, I know........ eww

But like I said, I'm determined. I want to look good ONE more time before I die. I want my wife to drool when she sees me. And at this point I'll do anything to get it, but for someone like me, that has ZERO knowledge it's daunting. It's so much info and so much of it is conflicting and confusing.

I'm the process of looking for sermorlin I found this site. Everyone was so nice and helpful and suggested i create a journal to get suggestions and guidance. So here i am.

I would REALLY like to add something to stack with the test, bc like I said, at this point I'm willing to shoot all kinds of shit in my ass to get to where I want to be. Grok said anavar or trenbolon is most used, but I don't really know.


Age-45

Weight-225

Height-6'1

Gear-120/w test

Diet: (probably atrocious but I lost 40lbs in 6 months on it)
Breakfast- Chik fila chicken biscuit w/1 sauce
Lunch- small bowl of yogurt with fruit/granola
Dinner- usually nothing

Workout- 30xbiceps + 30xtriceps each day


Other things- I take Adderall for Adhd, buprenorphine for pain (doesn't work but the va makes me take it in order to get the Adderall for what ever reason) vit d,a,c and magnesium.


That's it. That's me. Like I said, I don't really know what I'm doing or how to start. The few times I've tried to get in the gym since getting hurt I've gained zero muscle and got frustrated and quit. Is there hope for me?


Thanks for your time and support.

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Getting on TRT is a good step one. @Dr_Strangelove but now comes the real hard work, and that's going to be consistency in the gym, doing your cardio, and doing your food prep. So let's see all of it.

 

[ceo]

Hello all!

So I'm VERY VERY new to the world of PEDs and to the fitness world as a whole so I'm probably a bit of a joke to most of you that are ripped and actually like what you see in the mirror. But I want to be one of you, so here I am.

I'm 45 with a lovely wife and great kids. Im retired military and got out after 21 years due to a major back injury. Had 3 surgeries on it and it got A LITTLE BIT better. After some years laying around popping pills and drinking too much my body is an embarrassing mess. I got depressed and things got super dark, until one night I almost joined the 22 Club, but my wife talked me down and I went to rehab for alcohol.

I'm clean and sober 3 years now, and although no pain pills leaves me in a lot of pain, i am determined to not be ashamed of taking my shirt off in public. At my heaviest, I was 265, pretty much all fat. My face was puffy and I looked like microwaved dog shit. I stopped depression eating like a pig and am now at 225, but I still look disgusting so there is a lot of work I've got to do.

My wife had the bright idea to get be on TRT, and although the VA told me a test level of 206 wasn't low enough to warrant TRT through them i was given trt through a major online clinic and have been on it since August 12th.

I take 2 shots a week, Wednesday morning and Saturday night, 0.30mL each time (120mg/wk).

Since getting put on TRT life has gotten SO much better. Im sleeping, I'm happier and I feel better about myself which is great.

Although lately I've been in a really depressed mood, struggling with feeling ugly and unhappy with my life and how I look over all. Not sure if that's the trt, or just my normal self returning after the TRT Honeymoon.

Working out with the back pain is an issue, but I want to get past that bc I know once I gain some muscle, I'll be more stable and thru that I'll have less pain. But as if right now, I don't really work out. I don't know how.

In the military i ran......a LOT bc of my job, and I stayed in great shape and maintained a great musculature just by showing up and doing the training and all that. But now I'm an accountant that sits at a desk all day so I've wasted away the muscle and replaced it with fat.


So..... for the last 3 weeks I've done a VERY VERY minimal work out at home with 30 and 40 pound dumb bells, just arm curls and things to work out my triceps (don't know what they are called but I put the 40 lbs behind my head and lift it over my head and then back down behind my head..... sorry I'm really ignorant of all this)

But basically I struggle to do a few push ups at this point. I know, I know........ eww

But like I said, I'm determined. I want to look good ONE more time before I die. I want my wife to drool when she sees me. And at this point I'll do anything to get it, but for someone like me, that has ZERO knowledge it's daunting. It's so much info and so much of it is conflicting and confusing.

I'm the process of looking for sermorlin I found this site. Everyone was so nice and helpful and suggested i create a journal to get suggestions and guidance. So here i am.

I would REALLY like to add something to stack with the test, bc like I said, at this point I'm willing to shoot all kinds of shit in my ass to get to where I want to be. Grok said anavar or trenbolon is most used, but I don't really know.


Age-45

Weight-225

Height-6'1

Gear-120/w test

Diet: (probably atrocious but I lost 40lbs in 6 months on it)
Breakfast- Chik fila chicken biscuit w/1 sauce
Lunch- small bowl of yogurt with fruit/granola
Dinner- usually nothing

Workout- 30xbiceps + 30xtriceps each day


Other things- I take Adderall for Adhd, buprenorphine for pain (doesn't work but the va makes me take it in order to get the Adderall for what ever reason) vit d,a,c and magnesium.


That's it. That's me. Like I said, I don't really know what I'm doing or how to start. The few times I've tried to get in the gym since getting hurt I've gained zero muscle and got frustrated and quit. Is there hope for me?


Thanks for your time and support.

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@Dr_Strangelove Bros, is this a good start to this log? Don't worry, you should check my log. Look how out of shape I was, and look where I'm at now. You can definitely transform.

 

[Ulter]

Hello all!

So I'm VERY VERY new to the world of PEDs and to the fitness world as a whole so I'm probably a bit of a joke to most of you that are ripped and actually like what you see in the mirror. But I want to be one of you, so here I am.

I'm 45 with a lovely wife and great kids. Im retired military and got out after 21 years due to a major back injury. Had 3 surgeries on it and it got A LITTLE BIT better. After some years laying around popping pills and drinking too much my body is an embarrassing mess. I got depressed and things got super dark, until one night I almost joined the 22 Club, but my wife talked me down and I went to rehab for alcohol.

I'm clean and sober 3 years now, and although no pain pills leaves me in a lot of pain, i am determined to not be ashamed of taking my shirt off in public. At my heaviest, I was 265, pretty much all fat. My face was puffy and I looked like microwaved dog shit. I stopped depression eating like a pig and am now at 225, but I still look disgusting so there is a lot of work I've got to do.

My wife had the bright idea to get be on TRT, and although the VA told me a test level of 206 wasn't low enough to warrant TRT through them i was given trt through a major online clinic and have been on it since August 12th.

I take 2 shots a week, Wednesday morning and Saturday night, 0.30mL each time (120mg/wk).

Since getting put on TRT life has gotten SO much better. Im sleeping, I'm happier and I feel better about myself which is great.

Although lately I've been in a really depressed mood, struggling with feeling ugly and unhappy with my life and how I look over all. Not sure if that's the trt, or just my normal self returning after the TRT Honeymoon.

Working out with the back pain is an issue, but I want to get past that bc I know once I gain some muscle, I'll be more stable and thru that I'll have less pain. But as if right now, I don't really work out. I don't know how.

In the military i ran......a LOT bc of my job, and I stayed in great shape and maintained a great musculature just by showing up and doing the training and all that. But now I'm an accountant that sits at a desk all day so I've wasted away the muscle and replaced it with fat.


So..... for the last 3 weeks I've done a VERY VERY minimal work out at home with 30 and 40 pound dumb bells, just arm curls and things to work out my triceps (don't know what they are called but I put the 40 lbs behind my head and lift it over my head and then back down behind my head..... sorry I'm really ignorant of all this)

But basically I struggle to do a few push ups at this point. I know, I know........ eww

But like I said, I'm determined. I want to look good ONE more time before I die. I want my wife to drool when she sees me. And at this point I'll do anything to get it, but for someone like me, that has ZERO knowledge it's daunting. It's so much info and so much of it is conflicting and confusing.

I'm the process of looking for sermorlin I found this site. Everyone was so nice and helpful and suggested i create a journal to get suggestions and guidance. So here i am.

I would REALLY like to add something to stack with the test, bc like I said, at this point I'm willing to shoot all kinds of shit in my ass to get to where I want to be. Grok said anavar or trenbolon is most used, but I don't really know.


Age-45

Weight-225

Height-6'1

Gear-120/w test

Diet: (probably atrocious but I lost 40lbs in 6 months on it)
Breakfast- Chik fila chicken biscuit w/1 sauce
Lunch- small bowl of yogurt with fruit/granola
Dinner- usually nothing

Workout- 30xbiceps + 30xtriceps each day


Other things- I take Adderall for Adhd, buprenorphine for pain (doesn't work but the va makes me take it in order to get the Adderall for what ever reason) vit d,a,c and magnesium.


That's it. That's me. Like I said, I don't really know what I'm doing or how to start. The few times I've tried to get in the gym since getting hurt I've gained zero muscle and got frustrated and quit. Is there hope for me?


Thanks for your time and support.

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You definitely have some work to do, but you're in the right place. Welcome to the EF family. @Dr_Strangelove make sure you're updating us on your nutrition. That's very important.

 

[SteveMobsterG]

The VA told me a test level of 206 wasn't low enough to warrant TRT through them

Well that's wrong. 300 is the bottom of the range

 

[Dr_Strangelove]

Ya that's exactly what I told the Dr. And his supervising Dr as well. They both said that although it IS (was) low, it wasn't low ENOUGH to warrant intervention.

I was chasing endocrinology for 2 years. I got 4 separate tests over those 2 years and none of them were over 220. They acted like i was asking for Xanax bars and 80mg oxy's....... the answer was a firm and final no.

I had all the symptoms and sub standard blood work but they wouldn't budge.

I hope they come around it would have saved me a small fortune

Well that's wrong. 300 is the bottom of the range

 

[Dr_Strangelove]

Since I'm 100% new to lifting in any sort of structured way, what do I do?

I did the standard Google search and tbh there is so much conflicting information and it's all so subjective. Is there a plan out there someone can recommend so I'm not spinning my wheels?
I have a gym close by and I got a membership last night. It's a planet fitness which i know people make fun of but that's the level I'm at and it's cheap lol.

As for the diet portion, which is apparently the most important part, is it gonna be a lot of rice and baked chicken, no sugar, tons of water deal? I started reading some things and i keep hearing about macros. How to your track something like that? Are you guys literally weighing out your food? Is there a good reference yall can recommend for me to read that will educate me on all that? It seems pretty critical.

And as for my levels. My last test test i was at 990. Should I even be thinking about adding anavar or sermorlin?


Sorry for all the questions. I've read a lot of the journals but they are light years ahead of where I'm at and my comprehension is low bc it's a lot of new vocabulary. I really appreciate how welcoming every one has been. Cheers