Not everyone gets this feeling. I never got it. I got big and I felt good in the gym but outside I stayed my normal personality. To the OP I think if you are taking AAS so that you "feel" diffrent ( alpha male or "god") then your in it for the wrong reasons...
I'm sorry that you didn't get to experience this bro. It truly is magical. The first cycle was the most prominent but I still get that feeling from time to time. I'm always in that mode in the gym when I'm on, but outside the gym it comes and goes.