WTF is wrong with my body ?

[infar250]

hey guys,
maybe some of the vets who have had more exp can help me out. I feel like crap and am on a cycle i don know what it is.....all the gear is real and gotten from respectable sources but i believe my body reacts alot diff than it use to or is developing a tolerance.
Ok here's my cycle stats i have done 3 cycles since last winter time..
winter of 01
i did enanthate, tren, and dbol
great cycle was 185lbs at 5ft7
ok that sprng i did
winstrol, prop, eq
body weight dropped to 170 but i was solid
ok now this current cycle i am on is suspension, enanthate, deca
for some reason i feel small as shit on this cycle..... my weight has jumped back on to 180lbs but for some reason i dont feel as big as i use to during the winter time of last yr....... I am still maxing the same about 335 on bench but i feel my body looks diff everday...... like certain days i'll look in the mirror and be likeholy shit i look big then i'll look in them again and feel like gumby........ so i duno wut goin on.... this cycle is stopping in october and i am takin off till jan or feb doin a massive bulk cycle again........ someone help me...... can it be my training ? i dont think it's my diet it' prettyclean atleast 4-5k a da.......

 

[Golfer18--old]

Sounds mental to me man.

 

[macrophage69alpha]

could be the estrogen (did not see a aromatase inhibitor)

or could be the deca.. it can negatively affect mood (progestin)

or a combination of the two..

or perhaps something else.. stress... etc..

 

[Golfer18--old]

EQ made me feel like that at 800mg. I think it did the same to Mustang. Could be the drugs like Mac said.

 

[Golden_Muscle]

Im 5'10, 225lbs 12-13%bf, 19.6 inch arms. I know im pretty big, I feel big, but sometimes I look in the mirror and think im small. I hate that feeling, but it only lasts like 2 minutes at a time.

 

[RipDsel]

Im 5'10, 225lbs 12-13%bf, 19.6 inch arms. I know im pretty big, I feel big, but sometimes I look in the mirror and think im small. I hate that feeling, but it only lasts like 2 minutes at a time.

I feel the same way but everyone i see stares at me, and i lift more than 90% of the guys in the gym, but yet i never feel big enough

 

[Dr.M]

Mental or maybe your diet, sodium, bloat etc

For doing more than one cycle, shouldn't you weigh more? Are you sure your diet is up to par? Don't rob yourself...

 

[marky]

I feel smaller in the morning before ive eaten or drank a lot of water. Usually look bout right after noon. Also i notice in the gym there are some mirrors that are more complimentary than others.
In general though its mostly in the head,

 

[eric123]

Good points... I think we sometimes expect steroids to produce overnight miracles and that is NOT ever the case. It is just something to assist you in heavy training and clean eating. My friends tell me I'm huge, and I'm the only one at the gym with a bench over 400.. but I feel small. And this is funny, cause I weigh 285.

 

[aggro]

in the morning most people state that they look/feel small, smooth and soft, after eating this should change, sounds strange but i do see it all the time, also check bf and get the measuring tape out, this may disprove your theory of looking small, as you know diet is key, i can maintain a certain body weight but if the carb/fat ratio is off i tyically look lighter and less full/hard

 

[Johnny Cut]

Another reason/ theory

I know I felt that way when I was on my first cycle a few months back, but for the most part it was because I was in the mirror 24/7, its impossible to see yourself grow or see tremendous results when u see yourself everyday , when i went back to school thoguh, people asked me if i had swallowed a person, ....its better to let others build u up, trust me bro its all mental, seriously u will never be "big enough", just the way things go, u will alwas want to be bigger and bigger.........imo