This thread should be titled "when to give up". Dude! Wake up! You are dreaming. You weigh 165 pounds, and that's after a cycle? I work out with a kid who is a Junior in High School who hasn't even THOUGHT of juicing, and he weighs 245 pounds with a vein popping out of his bicep like a garden hose. Do you know what his secret is? He works hard. DAMN HARD! Once people realize that steroids aren't a replacement for hard work, threads like this will disappear.
I apologize if this seems harsh, but reality IS harsh. I didn't start juicing until I could bench 315, and weighed at least 215 naturally. You need to lay a natural foundation, and then let the gear be the frosting on the cake. It seems to me that you hardly gave bodybuilding naturally a shot at all.