What still haunts you?

[riverrock]

Have you anything going on that occasionally comes to mind and disturbs you? My ex-gf lost our baby 2 years ago and its starting to play on my mind again. I've woken up a number of times the past 2 weeks in the middle of the night because of it. Then, its not an issue for months until something causes me to Google something like "18 months" to see what an 18 month child would look like and the whole thing starts again.

Anything play on your mind from time to time and how have you dealt with it?

 

[the_clockwork]

why mind fuck yourself like that? Everything happens for a reason.

I don't really play 'what if' scenarios in my head. I'm all about karma (the real shit not the green stuff)

 

[riverrock]

why mind fuck yourself like that? Everything happens for a reason.

I don't really play 'what if' scenarios in my head. I'm all about karma (the real shit not the green stuff)

LOL!

I'll tell you what, if life is all a challenge then I'm going straight to Jesus considering some of the stuff I've had to put up with over the years!

 

[SpyWizard]

sorry for your lose man, it will be with you your whole life, but.. dont be sad about it, just realize it will make your next son with a woman you love that much more special to you..

 

[i-Supplements]

My Brother's death haunts my ass every day. I have never posted how he died, so here goes. He was asleep in his basement and there was an electrical fire (supposedly). He couldn't get out of the basement. The irony is this. He was 36 and he was the Fire Chief for years and still was. He was on the Fire Dept since he was 15. He tried to escape the basement. He had pulled a chair from one side of the basement to the other side of the basement. He was found face up with hand on wall trying to feel his way out. The pictures of his silouhette haunt my ass terribly. I should have never looked at thos pictures, but I did. It kills me to know he died such a terrible death.

By the way, it has been 2.5 years and his death is still under investigation. Not having closure makes me very angry, his death makes me even more angry. I am very angry inside.

 

[domoljub]

sorry to hear that el dandy, i hope there is justice and peace in your future

 

[javaguru]

Killing people....that haunt's me....It was legal, justified, glorified and I have awards from my service.

 

[PICK3]

turning down poon for "moral" reasons

 

[javaguru]

turning down poon for "moral" reasons

Nothing wrong with being gay bor....but you can do better than working the glory hole at the "Greasy Pole"

 

[gonelifting]

My Brother's death haunts my ass every day. I have never posted how he died, so here goes. He was asleep in his basement and there was an electrical fire (supposedly). He couldn't get out of the basement. The irony is this. He was 36 and he was the Fire Chief for years and still was. He was on the Fire Dept since he was 15. He tried to escape the basement. He had pulled a chair from one side of the basement to the other side of the basement. He was found face up with hand on wall trying to feel his way out. The pictures of his silouhette haunt my ass terribly. I should have never looked at thos pictures, but I did. It kills me to know he died such a terrible death.

By the way, it has been 2.5 years and his death is still under investigation. Not having closure makes me very angry, his death makes me even more angry. I am very angry inside.

Damn bro.... sorry.


I woke up once to my bed being in flames. 3-4 AM and it felt really hot and I started to feel my skin burning. I got up and saw flames all around me. Jumped out of bed and started yelling to my family. I was 13-15 or so.. don't remember exactly.

Long story short, they put the fire out, I and my family was safe.

The fire was started by the mattress touching the electrical outlet where a clock was plugged in. My bed was next to the wall touching the outlet. I guess it kept sparking until it went up in flames. We had circuit breakers which are known to not trip when short circuited. They are a specific brand that wnet out of business for that reason, I think. Don't quote me on that last part.

Anyway, that's my story. It sucks.

 

[Bikini Mod]

Sorry to hear about your sorrows....

I am haunted by the smell of my girls' hair and the sound of their innocent laughter.

 

[Spartacus]

Damn bro.... sorry.


I woke up once to my bed being in flames. 3-4 AM and it felt really hot and I started to feel my skin burning. I got up and saw flames all around me. Jumped out of bed and started yelling to my family. I was 13-15 or so.. don't remember exactly.

Long story short, they put the fire out, I and my family was safe.

The fire was started by the mattress touching the electrical outlet where a clock was plugged in. My bed was next to the wall touching the outlet. I guess it kept sparking until it went up in flames. We had circuit breakers which are known to not trip when short circuited. They are a specific brand that wnet out of business for that reason, I think. Don't quote me on that last part.

Anyway, that's my story. It sucks.

better go join a church bro

 

[vixensghost]

My Brother's death haunts my ass every day. I have never posted how he died, so here goes. He was asleep in his basement and there was an electrical fire (supposedly). He couldn't get out of the basement. The irony is this. He was 36 and he was the Fire Chief for years and still was. He was on the Fire Dept since he was 15. He tried to escape the basement. He had pulled a chair from one side of the basement to the other side of the basement. He was found face up with hand on wall trying to feel his way out. The pictures of his silouhette haunt my ass terribly. I should have never looked at thos pictures, but I did. It kills me to know he died such a terrible death.

By the way, it has been 2.5 years and his death is still under investigation. Not having closure makes me very angry, his death makes me even more angry. I am very angry inside.

 

[gonelifting]

better go join a church bro

I've been in about 6 car accidents too. How about now... still join a church?


I wasn't the driver in any of them.


One of them, the car flipped over on the highway many times and was totalled. My buddy got thrown out of the hatch and rolled across the highway.

"haunting" stuff.

 

[vixensghost]

I've been in about 6 car accidents too. How about now... still join a church?


I wasn't the driver in any of them.


One of them, the car flipped over on the highway many times and was totalled. My buddy got thrown out of the hatch and rolled across the highway.

"haunting" stuff.

Jesus. You are like a cat with 9 lives!

 

[riverrock]

I've been in about 6 car accidents too. How about now... still join a church?


I wasn't the driver in any of them.


One of them, the car flipped over on the highway many times and was totalled. My buddy got thrown out of the hatch and rolled across the highway.

"haunting" stuff.

I've been the passenger in 3 bus crashes now. One in Ireland where a Bus driver breaked too late and ploughed into the back of a mini bus carrying handicapped children, another here in England where a Bus driver couldn't take the turn and drove into a ditch, and a third in Kosovo where some nutter pulled out in front of our bus as it was doing a good 60MPH past a fuel station on a highway.

The handicapped children being hurt was particularly hard to cope with.

 

[gonelifting]

I almost drowned in a lake when I was like 14 or so. My 5 or so friends and I had a rowboat in the middle of the lake and we were swimming out of the boat. I know how far I can swim and still make it back to the boat safely. So I left the boat, and when I turned back around to go back, the boat was further away because my friend rowed away a little. (not his fault, he just did) So I panicked a little and tried to just tread water which I can't do so well. I swim easier than I tread, but anyway, I yelled out to my friend to come back with the boat. He tried rowing back to me but rowed IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!!! The more he rowed, the further he would be from me. At this point I was really frantic and everyone was screaming different shit. It was crazy.

We had life vests on the boat, so I tell my other friend to "Throw a vest!" Meahwhile I'm gasping for air and swallowing tons of water and SOOO freaking tired. My friend DOESN'T throw the vest because he thinks I'M KIDDING! I YELL AT HIM at the top of my voice "THROW THE FUCKING VEST!!!!" and he still has it in his hands motioning a throw but not letting go of the vest. STILL laughing.

I thought to myself "THIS is how I'm going to die? With my friend laughing at me, not knowing I really needed help? It went through my head so many times. I begged him for it at the top of my lungs. My other friends were YELLING at him to throw the vest. No one can understand the anger and frustration of having someone 'fake throw" you a life jacket while you're drowning, unless it's happened to you. This must have lasted a good 5 minutes from start to finish. I swear it seemed like an hour.


One of my friends swam to me, handed me a vest and helped me out. They got the boat towards me and I was able to PLOP onto the boat in ure exhaustion. I was coughing/gasping water for a few minutes but I was ultimately alright.

Whew. My cousin had bought all of us to this lake and was on the shore not knowing what had happened. He would have been the "responsible adult" who would have taken the brunt of the blame if anything had happened to any of us. I'm glad nothing happened because he did us a favor by taking us out to this place.

Anyway, that's my other story. I've been through a lot.

 

[heatherrae]

Watching how my mom suffered dying of cancer.

My mom abandoning me when I was 15.

Working at a pet store and seeing a puppy dying of parvo. I wanted to take it to the vet, but the boss told me that I could not take it to the vet unless I bought it, and I didn't have the money. I left it there and it was dead the next morning. To this day, I feel enormous guilt that I should have just stolen the dog and taken it to the vet. My bf at the time talked me out of doing it. It was a little basset hound and every time I would go near it, it would whimper for me to help it. If I go to hell for anything I've ever done in life, it will probably be that.