what is it like to be normal

[§äñît¥ Pôí§ðñ]

tell me, what is it like to not wake up everyday and feel utter misery or to wish every day was your last?

don't aynone DARE flame me for this, you have NO idea what i have gone through or have been going through

these are honest questions.

what is happiness? did you find it, or did it find you?


does your religious belief or lack thereof have anything to do with the amount of satisfaction you derive from life?

 

[HighIntensity]

i have dry skin

 

[velvett]

Forgiveness, forgivenss in others as well as self.

I found it - it didn't find me. Took me quite a while but it happened.

Religious belief or lack thereof has nothing to do with it and should not determine personal satisfaction. While there are those who derive their happiness from Religion it doesn't mean that if you don't you can't be happy.


You will find your way Dread and you will bury and release that which haunts you just have to find your way through it even if that means re-living everything that ever brought you pain.

 

[VooDoo Lady]

i have dry skin

does your religious belief or lack thereof have anything to do with the amount of satisfaction you derive from life?

YES! When I really began a relationship with God, my life REALLY began to come into focus. The depths of joy and happiness that I can now experience is just mind-blowing.

I'll tell you the single event that changed the course of my life forever (at the risk of being ridiculed and flamed):

acid

No lie.

Anyway, if you want to PM me, please feel free....

 

[big4life]

Happiness is not something you can find. It's more a feeling inside you. Usually it comes along when you least expect it.
Try to concentrate on whatever positives you can find in your life, that will help.

The main thing is to be honest about what is causing your unhappiness. Deal with those issues and you will find happiness.
You're taking the first step in talking to somebody.

Good luck in trying to deal with everything.

I hope it works out for you.

 

[§äñît¥ Pôí§ðñ]

Velvett - do you have a theory on hypnosis? as far as it helping or hurting
since i was mostly unconcious when all that "bad stuff" happened, i remember enough for it to be painful, but what do u think about any benefits of hypnosis to perhaps fill in the rest of the days that i dont have any recollection of?

i dont know anything about hypnosis, it may be legit or total crap, i am just asking if anyone has an opinion on this

 

[OMEGA]

I have a very simplistic answer that starts with you.

you goota start from the goround up lady,

cut all extranious relations, cut all ties to those who do not contribute to your life, cut all habits, that are not natural for you to do.

when I feel down I cut it all out, the superficial associations with others, unecessary habits, like coffee, drinking, and eating poorly.

and I start by sleeping a good nights sleep on time, eating when I am hungry....not when I am suppost to, and I run on trails outside.

good fun pysical activities, proper diet, good sleep, and starting from the beginning all again is what you should do.

when you start with a tune up like this you start seeing things from what they are, and then you will start by forging new meanigfull relations with others, with life.......(and maybe god)

dread I know god exists, you must believe me when I say this..somthings out there...i don't know what it is but it is there....and it wants us to be happy.....open your heart and your mind, and you might see what I have seen only recently...(you know the story...and guess what it happened again)


OMEGA

 

[§äñît¥ Pôí§ðñ]

thx for the replies thus far

i was hardcore agnostic for years
and ironically before everything turned to shit, i began to change my perspectivve a bit
so, christianity, F you
i think there is a god now, but nothing like the god most religions think of
for all you know we could be the science project of a little demented alien kid with mental processing powers far beyond anything we can comprehend

is there an ultimate plan ? perhaps. i feel more now like there are many pathways in life and each decision you make, large or small, could vastly change the path of your life

 

[§äñît¥ Pôí§ðñ]

i wasnt directing any of my posts at anyone in particiular, just fuming a bit

 

[velvett]

Velvett - do you have a theory on hypnosis?

It's wild that you should ask because I had considered that but I couldn't be hypnotized the man just creeped my out and I ran out his office. Black hair black eyes - shutter. The information I had is now so out of date and so I have no idea where.

Sorry.


I'll poke around and see what and who I can find out about it.

 

[§äñît¥ Pôí§ðñ]

lol
thats actually funny in a strange way

ill read a bit about it myself later,
i just and feeling pretty 'down' at the moment and just wanted to post a bit before i go lay bac down

 

[gotmilk]

tell me, what is it like to not wake up everyday and feel utter misery or to wish every day was your last?

don't aynone DARE flame me for this, you have NO idea what i have gone through or have been going through

these are honest questions.

what is happiness? did you find it, or did it find you?


does your religious belief or lack thereof have anything to do with the amount of satisfaction you derive from life?

Been there...decided to try to mate my new Toyota pick-up truck with a telephone pole. Still a little messed up but I figure I was meant to be miserable

 

[the nature boy]

From reading about you situation from other threads, I don't think there's any God that can help you. The only thing that can help you is time, hopefully in time things will get cleared up. Also, I don't really know if things can get worse, that would be pretty much impossible. Your husband and yourself need to keep supporting each other. I have confidence that thigs will work themselves out.

 

[Jimsbbc]

Take it one day at a time. No situation is hopeless. You will make it DL keep pressing on. When the waters rise too high and seams like all is lost praying to God will help. He will give you peace. A kind of peace you can't get from anywhere else. Seek him and you will find it.

 

[smallmovesal]

the counselling is a start babe...

take it one day at a time... try to eliminate that which is causing the stress (although for you, that might not be possible until certain things are resolved by the authorities)...

i really think a move would help you though. if there is anything i can do to help you let me know PLEASE. i was really sick in november and i've been there.

 

[the People's Champ]

for me, happiness is the little things in life. maybe a change of scenery is in order, or a change of pace, friends, yada yada yada. maybe your life is just to routine for you and you don't find any excitement doing the same things over and over. try something new. it takes that much more from you to take a risk and find out what you don't know about yourself. I get off on the little things in life, such as someone telling me that they miss me or that I did a kick ass job, or just hearing my name said in a different manner. call me simple, call me whatever you want, but don't call me late for supper. anyway, I hope this helps a little or a lot.

 

[§äñît¥ Pôí§ðñ]

i need some fucking stability

dread lord just called me from his sisters house all freaking out and shit, having a panic attack

fuck man
i cant handle beng alone here at all....... and he has been gone all day
now he is not ok to drive home for a while

cunt, bitch, motherfucker, shit, whore, FUCK

stable stable stable

 

[§äñît¥ Pôí§ðñ]

ive been feeling alot better since im not being arsenic poisoned anymore
woohoo

:/

 

[smallmovesal]

like i said, if you need anything... like even a phone call or anything... let me know sweetie.

 

[§äñît¥ Pôí§ðñ]

i want to move badly, far far away from here
and that was looking like it was going to happen for a good while
but plans have changed

might well have to stay here in this same god awful apartment for another year and a half...

 

[Bigsatan13]

Dread, I have no idea what it's like to be normal, but I can tell you that I get up every night and look foward to living my life to the fullest. I always strive to improve myself and try new things. I wish to live as long a life as possible as long as I am healthy and able to live with dignity. I'm not going to say everything has been good in my life , but I take the bad hands dealt to me and deal with it. You only have one life, when it's over that's it! Live it up Dread, reach inside yourself and find what's bothering you and deal with it. Remember, there is always someone worse off then you and alot of the times they're dealing with it.

 

[smallmovesal]

plans changed?

 

[§äñît¥ Pôí§ðñ]

money decisions
and since i dont have the money, i dont make the decisions...

 

[smallmovesal]

 

[buddy28]

Im not really happy right now, and havent been all that happy for the past 8 years.

I take drugs sometimes to make myself feel social, but thats getting alittle old.

I guess the key is doing what needs to be done. Find out what personal problems need to be solved, and do everything in ur power to find the solution to those problems.

If the problems are large, the healing time is usually large too. It stinks. But the alternative, dwelling on the shittiness of it all, is worse. Ive done that too. That didnt help.

Do what it takes. Be persistent. Create a warm, supportive relationship with ur hubby. And cut the fat (negativity) out of ur life, and youll get to the place where u want to be.